Day two: I'm optimistic about today. I woke up early today. Even though I didn't have a morning boner, yet I don't feel heavy as usual. I headed to office (from where I'm writing this update). Everything seems fine so far!
Sounds great that you are able to keep a clear mind and avoid temptation while you are at work. Have you made any plans to stick with it after work when you might have more free time?
Thanks for alerting me, buddy. I should go with a plan. I usually go to the gym. But I guess I need more activities to keep my mind away.
Gym sounds like a good place to start mate! You just can't do that 7 days a week (unless you're Superman) so it might help to take up another hobby or find other things to fill the time. I'm still pretty new to this but think the key for me is going to be to plan what I'll do in those times when I would otherwise be bored and probably have my hands down my pants. For example I've had the day off work today so I spent some time this morning deciding how to keep myself busy. Had an appointment to go to this morning, went out for lunch, took a long walk home, now I'm just about to go food shopping to make a nice dinner tonight... Nothing fancy but all stuff that keeps me occupied and away from temptation.
Thank you for your reply mate, I'm REALLY learning from this forum. You drew my attention to that even casual activities count.
Day three: a bit heavy but I'll carry on my success. I struggled to wake up today. I felt the urges to P this morning, but I quickly jumped outta bed. This helped me go through. I find that physical unexpected reactions will distract your thoughts. Another day in my PM journey. I'm hopeful that I can go off PM for the next 87 days and why not for ever.
Day four: another step in the path of healing. I didn't wake up early this morning, but I don't feel heavy. I got a morning wood although it wasn't hard as it used to be (around 90% hard). This is a good progress to me. I read around here that people might find it helpful to go through online dating. I created a tinder account and I got myself a couple of matches. Didn't get any dates though. I'm planning to go out with friends after work so that I don't feel lonely and go to porn. I'm optimistic about it so far. By the way, can any of you guys tell me how do they keep themselves busy. I want to know about others so that learn something about it
Hey man, sounds like it's going well for you. Just a word of warning about Tinder and other dating apps. Be careful they don't just turn into a substitute for porn. Far too easy to find yourself swiping, pic swapping, edging and using it in the same way you would use a porn site. I've been there so talking from experience! Other ways of keeping yourself busy - sports, exercise, healthy eating, reading, meditation, seeing friends and family. Even Netflix does it for me, I just put my phone in a different room to make sure I don't get tempted to "double screen" with porn on my mobile.
thank you so much for your reply mate. Tbh I wasn't aware about this fact. I better be careful with my internet use here. Appreciate your help.
Day five: all's good so far. I woke early this morning, and don't feel heavy. I didn't get a morning wood like yesterday, but it's fine. Also, I had blue balls yesterday although I wasn't aroused sexually. Does anyone relate to this? I'm not craving porn today and after some advice from @daniel193. That might be because of using tinder. Anyways, I'm having a date after I finish my work today. This might keep me away from porn. I would do with a piece of advice guys. Do you think I should tell her about my porn issues at the very beginning or I should wait till later?!
Think you might scare her off if you admit to being a porn addict on the first date! Just play it cool and don't let that part of you get in the way of having a good time.
Day six: hard but not impossible It's the weekend, so I woke up a bit late. I feel heavy, and I still feel down because of PIED. I feel inadequate and unsecure about it. I sometimes say fuck that I'm gonna be like this all my life. An sometimes I think I might reverse this at some point. It's really hard to me now! But I'm not gonna give up on my goal here! 90 PM challenge. And why not for ever.
In my opinion, everyday you think your Day Counter. You remember masturbation. You should write only if you feel bad or if you want tell about your memory. I aggree with you
10 days of nofap, then I fucked up. I feell ike shit for I relapsed after all this. I don't know what happened. It was automatic I couldn't stop myself! Now I reset the counter to zero.