I've battled with porn addiction most of my life and I mean battled.Its caused so much anguish and pain in my life.Problems with self esteem,guilt and feeling covertly lousy about myself. I couldn't stop.When the feeling hit me it would overpower all my good intentions. In 2017 I went to India and received initiation into a sampradaya.No money was involved.The guru said the mantra which must remain secret would wipe you clean like a computer virus.I was sceptical.It worked gradually.I noticed that the hold wasn't as great despite relapses. Since September of 2017 I have not watched any porn and my libido has plummeted. I keep up the meditation(mantra) and sing a bhajan every day. If you haď told me 2 years ago that a mantra could do this i would have called you deluded. This has worked without willpower apart from the discipline to meditate twice a day. To put it mildly this experience has turned my world view and life around. I'm not trying to convince anyone I'm just relating my own experience.
I practised Buddhist meditation before that and part of the pain was trying to live the 5 precepts and failing time and time again. I was living a lie; people saw me as a guy living a good life and I was living a lie. After so long I thought it had beaten me.
It is really mystical and I am proud to be indian. Mantra meditation is famous in india it is different from buddhist meditations. Mantra meditations are the most powerful meditation in the world.
"whatever floats your boat" someone said. Glad that you found something which helped you overcome this addiction. We are all walking in our own journeys though the pathways, roads may be different but the destination is the same. We are all trying to be better human beings in one way or the other. Keep at it brother and may you find what you are looking for.
Thanks for the encouragement. I only do the morning bhajan- kakad aarati it takes 30 minutes.When I first met the Guru he asked after initiation for 20 minutes twice a day.That was in November 2017.I went back to India in late June of 2018 and he asked me to do 2hrs meditation a day. The mantra is to be kept secret. Ricky, I couldn't agree with you more; we all must find our own way.I realize now that our failures in life can lead us to something better. What astonished me was that a phrase a vibration repeated silently can profoundly change the mind.Unless I'd experienced it myself I wouldn't have believed it. I wish everyone of you on this board peace and happiness and success over this addiction.
What you were doing before that didn't work because it could not possibly work. Battling against yourself will always fail. You met a very wise guru, who knew exactly the purpose of a mantra. It's his wisdom and knowledge of human psychology that helped you, not some mantra itself. Your story is very inspirational.
H what exactly one has to do in meditation? There are many videos but non seems to be concrete... Can you elaborate?
Every individual is different and has to find what works for them. I'm glad this has helped heal your addiction and thanks for sharing with us.