OK it's the third time that I relapse, but this time full PMO... I guess this is probably induced from some images accidentaly found on the internet while I was looking for some functional training exercises... This time I wanna do an experiment: writing my experiences here in this thread, so that I have a new hobby and and one more motivation not to relapse Do you agree with me?
I too am making my journal accountable for my actions. A lot of my problem is going into private mode and staying there until I get home, I want to live life not on private mode anymore
So guys I started NoFap 6 months back roughly.. but couldn't continue for more than 8 days .. but this time I wanna stop let this thing damage my life .. so starting at day 0 again wish me luck ..
Just keep coming back here and be positive. Trust me, I have relapsed so many times this year and it is such a let down every time. Come here to vent and take accountability.
It happens man. If you want some advice on how to avoid relapsing, let me know. I say definitely go for a journal if you think that'll help.
Day 2; during the past 2 days I've been struggling against depression, because of my sense of failure, frustration, lack of self esteem, etc. There's been a moment, when I was praying the rosary, when I even thought the sentence:"If only suicide weren't a mortal sin..."; and I got angry with myself, and I felt unable to do my ordinary duties. Now I've learned that being humble is the key of happiness, because it makes see everything with the correct eyes. So I go on like this: I'm descovering once again the pleasure of playing music, which was buried by the sense of duty and the technical aspects of studying concerts and orchestral excerpts. I don't know if everything was related to my relapse, but I feel like depression is harder to fight than PMO, and it's the main cause of it. So I have to be careful.
Think of it this way: the more negative your mentality is towards a relapse, the worse you will feel. If you realize that it's a natural human instinct to mate with someone (release your sperm), you will be hit less hard. NoFap isn't the answer to your life's problems, it's only an aid.
I realised that relapsing can be a way to get rid of a bad situation, even just for a few minutes. Now I don't have any satisfaction from PMO, even if I have some urges, and the last time I relapsed I nearly felt like I didn't, I was indifferent: no good and no bad, sadness... Or maybe just the fact that pornography didn't respond to my expectations. So I learned that PMO isn't worth it, it's not solving problems and I'd better stop, most of all because it's a mortal sin. Anyway my worst enemy is the demoralizing steam of thoughts flowing through my mind.
[QUOTE = "Nanni, post: 2086921, miembro: 314729"] OK, es la tercera vez que recaigo, pero esta vez está llena de PMO ... Supongo que esto probablemente se debe a algunas imágenes encontradas accidentalmente en Internet mientras buscaba algunos ejercicios de entrenamiento funcional ... Esta vez quiero hacer un experimento: escribir mis experiencias aquí en este hilo, para tener un nuevo pasatiempo y una motivación más para no recaer. ¿Estás de acuerdo conmigo? [/ CITA] Quiero empezar de 0
[QUOTE = "Yo_soy, post: 2091964, miembro: 333350"] [QUOTE = "Nanni, post: 2086921, miembro: 314729"] OK, es la tercera vez que recaigo, pero esta vez está llena de PMO ... Supongo que esto probablemente se debe a algunas imágenes accidentalmente en Internet mientras buscamos algunos ejercicios de entrenamiento funcional ... Esta vez quiero hacer un experimento: escribir mis experiencias aquí en este hilo, para tener un nuevo pasatiempo y una motivación más para no recaer. ¿Estás de acuerdo conmigo? [/ CITA] Quiero empezar de 0 [/ QUOTE] Como creo un foro para contar desde 0?
[QUOTE = "Nanni, post: 2091973, miembro: 314729"] Porque se ha convertido mi contenido? [/ QUOTE] Donde debo ir para iniciar un foro
Day 3; Today, after practicing for a while, I'm going to the seaside, so that I relax a little bit, have fun and take a little sun! I just have to see if the program and the organization are up to be the same during the day, because maybe something is gonna happen.
Day 8: Always practicing with my instrument, but even though I can see some improvements, I've got a lack of motivation for joining the next audition. Two days ago I was back home from Zurich, where I was invited for an audition for The Philharmonia Zurich Academy Orchestra; I failed the first round... Again... Now I'm afraid of failing once again, because even though I improve myself with my technique, I don't feel like enough confident to win... Just a few times in my life I felt like:"OK, I'm f***ing gonna win!", but then I lost; and when I felt like :"I'm not prepared enough... ç_ç" I lost... Now I don't know anymore how to put myself beyond these situations... And my master never told me something like:"Great! Bravo!", never shown enthusiastic of my improvements: he just behaved like:"OK, this is what you were supposed to do, let's keep on working, the way is hard and long..."; and because of many characterial discrepancy, gettin me stressed, I decided to stop attending him and to attend someone else. In this complicated situation I really want to relapse, even though I know the outcome... The less satisfactions I have, the bigger become my urges...