My previous streak was 18 days, but looking back it wasn't very quality. I've realized that to completely change my life, I need to go HARD mode. No PMO, no edging, no p subs, no fantasizing. I gave myself way to many compromises before. "She isn't completely naked so it isn't porn" or "If I just MO every once in awhile it'll be harmless" if you are letting yourself have these thoughts right now, you're setting yourself up for failure. I'm tired of being an awkward, socially anxious disaster. I want to find the girl of my dreams and leave porn behind forever. I have a stronger resolve after this relapse and I'm ready to do this for the long haul
In order to be truly free of PMO you must stop fantasizing and tackle the inner feelings like anxiety, depression or stress. Only by facing these feelings and getting to the root of the problems you can be free. You can fill your time with work and exercise, but ultimately it comes down to your true feelings and those are the reason why you have turned to PMO to numb them.
I didn't start PMOing to numb my feelings, I started PMOing because I was a horny eleven year old. I'm messed up now because my brain developed with porn. Porn has caused most of my mental issues, I can tell because abstaining makes them much easier.
It's great that you've become aware of the problems and observed that your mental issues have spiked with porn use. You should stop now before the withdrawals can become really nasty, kindling has killed drug users.
Would you explain me this passage here? Thanks. Btw C12345 i see you motivated enough to do this and that's a good thing, my brain also developed with porn and i remember my ocd being "lighter" back then before, just like all of my friends, i started watching porn. You don't even think twice cause it's like a totally legitimate and harmless thing nowadays, that's at least the message they want us to perceive. But remember not to be too hard on yourself cause if i remember well you also have ocd so the more you try not to think about something, the more that idea will grow inside of you eventually leading you to relapse. Think less, distract yourself basically. In the way that comes natural not to think about certain stuff. But honestly i'm being too lazy these days that i don't feel like distracting myself either so... but i'm keeping my streak even if the urges definitely showed up the last days. Good luck!
Kindling means when you have withdrawal symptoms, each subsequent relapse will make them worse, especially when you binge PMO after a nofap streak. Either you quit PMO completely or you will suffer the most extreme withdrawal symptoms. Here's a good thread about kindling by @Tywin Lannister https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.p...s-stop-immediately-or-it-can-kill-you.222778/
Yes that's what i've been doing in the past times. It gets harder and harder to handle it when you quit. Definitely something to avoid. Thank you.
Yeah I definitely have OCD, I'm passed the anxious stage and the convincing stage. Now my brain is starting to realize that it's complete bullshit, so it's just a waiting game at this point. It was pretty much gone until I relapsed, but it has come back a little bit.