On longest streak. Feel like shit

Hello Guys. I'm currently on day 20 a day which I thought would be filled with happiness and celebration due to the fact that this is my longest streak in over two years. Everything is going great in life. Currently talking to this girl and everything is going perfect. The truth is I feel like shit. I feel useless and like no one likes me. Cold showers seem to temporarily cheer me up. But I can't seem to fill my life with hope. I don't wish to hurt myself. My state of mind is just down in the dumps for some reason. I need advice I need some hope.

 

Didn't think I could hit flat line so early on. A recent surgery and an upcoming relationship have kept me away from porn and they both have kinda killed my urge to watch porn. I guess all of these combined variables have led me to hit flat line early on. I don't even want sex. Hopefully this goes away after 30 days. I feel the benefits coming but they are being over-shadowed by the mood swings and depression that's hitting me. It's like I can't believe I'm 20 days in but I feel like something's missing... The excitement I thought I would have is missing.

 

I will, thanks for the support brother. I've been reading "Your Brain On Porn" (By: Gary Wilson) and It's shocking how the innovation of the porn industry has effected the brains of young people. I will get past this no matter what it takes. I've been fighting and blaming myself for too long.