Reflecting after my relapse

No one is perfect, we all make mistakes and today, I had my fault. It has been six years since this story began for me. The first video, and then, it wrapped around me and became my life. This is painful to admit to. For the past year, I have gotten so much better. Yet, every now and then, I have slipped up.

Naturally, it saddens me, to think that a search can be so damaging. In short, I believe I need to take some time to walk outside and, consider what I need to do in the future. Thanks everyone.

 

Firstly, Thank you for all your insight everyone. I agree, as humans we make mistakes and well, we should learn. I have certainly had ups and downs. I am glad to say I have gotten three to four month streaks over the past year. It to me shows that with perseverance and resilience I can make it.

And so, I will begin my journey with the knowledge that I can improve and then, I will be free of this. I also know it will be hard, I can attest to that due to the past. But even with that, I will give it my best and update you all. I hope with my story I can inspire others along the way. In addition I am sure I will need guidance and will be here regularly for it. May you all have a fantastic day!

P.S: (Tigresswild) I will try the cold shower method, I have heard of it, so that's on my list.

 

Thank you so much, your words of encouragement are heartfelt. And you are absolutely right. Change is gradually occurring every day. Like Winston Churchill said "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts."