my battle against hentai

Well, don't waste time feeling shameful and disgusted. The problem is beyond hentai. The shame and disgust will keep you locked in. The mind is chasing those feelings, so when will you transmute those feelings into something that will actually strengthen you? Is this the only thing that your mind enjoys? Do your best to find something else that you enjoy.

 

Hello,

Have you read 'Your Brain on Porn'? It teaches you how and why the brain seeks this type of material. It's essentially shock which your brain misinterprets as anxiety...which is linked with arousal. Your brain becomes confused by the shock and interprets this as arousal. I's a trick and the cycle starts, your brain believes this is what you need (another lie) to get the associated 'high'. I know this material is disturbing, horrifying even, but shame and guilt feed addiction.

Your addiction is not who you are, it's an affliction. Forgive yourself and move on as best you can. As suggested above, exercise - boost positive releases of serotonin and dopamine. Replace the bad habit with a healthy one, do this regularly. Mindfulness Meditation is also fantastic - learning to not act on thoughts and feelings which lead to negative behavior - but allowing the feelings to pass without taking action.

And don't lose hope The cause of relapse is lack of positive emotion and stimulus. Feed yourself only positive mantras (self talk) with no use of negative words or statements such as "I won't look at porn" or "I can't give into temptation" - the brain doesn't recognize negative words in the same way as it does positive - it's very literal. It essentially ignores them, I believe Marissa Peer discusses this in 'self talk' advice (I think). Try "I will chose a healthy lifestyle" or "I will overcome this feeling in time" - always positive!

When you have a good day, or even just a moment, perhaps write this down and all good feelings associated with that time - you can review these in times of need to boost your self-esteem and confidence.
Also, research strengthening your Pre-frontal cortex - this becomes weakened by P use and governs logic, rational decision making and much more. Exercise this part of your brain as much as you can, and remember our brain can be rewired - neural pathways.

Research and learn, best of luck, S&L

 

I just flex my thigh whenever I feel an urge is coming