New here

Have been wanting to quit masturbating to porn for a while, but could never really find the will to do it. Didn't have any real good incentives; no girlfriend, I see very few people on a daily basis due to the nature of working graveyard shifts so I never really meet anyone new, keep to myself most days and never have company. I knew from past readings that masturbating every day is detrimental to your mental state, and the resulting depression and overall lack of motivation to do anything that requires a modicum of effort outside of my job prevents me from taking creative endeavors. I want to do cool things and make cool stuff, but I just can't when I always feel like I'm out of it. The few times I manage to start a streak on my own, around the 4 or 5 day mark I start to get massive amounts of anxiety and feel like I'm gonna explode; the only thing that helps is going back and "sedating" myself.

Finally, saw the coomer meme that's been going around and I think it's honestly woken me up to just how pathetic and sad my state of being is and has been. Started reading up on the NoFap and went through all the preliminary material. I thought that knowing all the pitfalls and deleting my porn stash would be enough for me to stave off the urges, and I wouldn't need to make an account here. Well, I was proven wrong. Just broke my four day streak, and I've decided I guess I need someone to hold me accountable, or at least people to talk to and provide resources for quitting.