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Day 308 still flatlining

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by filmit57, Dec 18, 2019.

  1. filmit57

    filmit57 Fapstronaut

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    I’ve been hard mode since day 1 no more urges for porn or masterbastion just real sex, but I still have a lot of ups and downs with my withdrawal symptoms like low libido, heavy brain fog which includes trouble with word recall or past events, brain feels blank/empty and not feeling present, low motivation, tired on a full nights rest and anxiety. I usually have these symptoms anywhere between 1-4 weeks at a stretch then a 2-6 good days stretch. This cycle has been going on ever since I started I’m 33 with somewhere between 16-20 years of heavy to moderate porn and masterbation use, which was up to 1-3times a day most days of the week when I hit my late 20’s I did it less often maybe 1-2 times a day twice a week, until I finally stopped.

    Seems my brain is still figuring things out can anyone relate to my experience whether it’s the symptoms or the amount of days you have been in and out of your flatlines during your street?

    At this point in the journey the brain fog is the thing that effects me the most and most often, my motivation has been much better and my libido has improved. I am also a Virgin due to my lack of interest in real women over the years due to porn.

    During my good days a have motivation that is through the roof and the best mental clarity I’ve ever had or at least good for me as I’ve been in a fog the last 15 years or so.
     
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  2. Hey man, I was exactly the same. Gone about 280 days of nofap and was still having a lot of mental withdrawal symptoms. Mostly social anxiety, insomnia, depression and anhedonia in the later days of my streak. Too bad I relapsed many times after that. Had just relapsed 1 hour ago again. Fuck this shit. You can check out my profile and check out my posts about PAWS (post acute withdrawal syndrome) 308 days is great... DONT RELAPSE MAN, trust me. Take the pain and one day it will get better and life regains its color and beauty again.
     
  3. ppr_kuttt

    ppr_kuttt Fapstronaut

    Guys, maybe I’m missing something here but have you ever considered starting to have some sexual contact in real life? I’m not talking about penetration. Maybe meeting a girl - or a guy, if it’s the case - who can help yo experience some of real life stuff like kissing cuddling etc? It seems you have sexual energy and have nothing to spend with - and so your brain remains in a foggy situation as it does not have a way for spending that amount of energy.
    Hope you guys the best.
     
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  4. filmit57

    filmit57 Fapstronaut

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    Will definitely never relapse I’ve suffered so much that I it has at least made me a very determined person. Once I’m out of this mess I feel like everything else in life in comparison will come so easy to me.
     
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  5. I feel you man on your suffering as I went through it also for almost 2 years straight. You can check my contents out and others as well.
     
  6. MrT3650

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    16-20 years of heavy porn use; you need more time. Congrats on making it this far dude most guys on here haven't come close but in truth you may need another 6 months to a year because 16-20 years is a long time. Hang in there and be tough. You should also try to rewire with women dude, that may be the jumpstart you need. Try to meet some ladies and lose that V-Card.
     
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  7. filmit57

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    Thanks bro another 6-12 months is something I can definitely handle, I know many girls I can hook up with I just wasn't sure if sex would be a good or bad thing in my rehab, I can get with a girl in the beginning of the year or wait until closer to the end of the year if its beneficial in my rehab. In your experience real sex with ejaculation is a positive in rehab? It was my insecurities and sour brain symptoms from porn/masterbation that caused me to avoid sex with women, now I did have sex with a prostitute where it is legal in the world but I could not stay hard and it wasn't pleasurable at all so I don't really count that.
     
  8. MrT3650

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    I feel that it depends on length of time, for example I'm currently about 7 1/2 months in my reboot from about 14 years of pmo, I had sex at month 4 and that sent me into a huge flatline for about a month and a half. Last week I had two wet dreams in a row Thursday, Friday, and had sex twice Saturday and Sunday and I feel a flatline but nothing in comparison to my previous one. If I were you I would test the waters, you've come very far so I don't think 1 sexual encounter here and there is going to hurt you. Just remember you have to rewire your body and brain to actual women and get accustomed to real sex and connection so don't be surprised if you still have issues maintaining an erection. Understand that the process of rebooting and rewiring are different and once you've completed a reboot you can still potentially have premature ejaculation, delayed ejaculation, non pleasurable sex. So test the waters right now and get a baseline understanding of where you are in your recovery, if you want, at the end of the day it's your body, your recovery, your choice. Good luck man!!!
     
  9. Xexos

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    I'd rather flatline forever than go back to PMO.
     
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  10. clapas

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    I can relate to that. In fact I was wondering if those symptoms and cycles were really from withdrawal or, on the other hand, were unrelated to PMO. I hope it's all a consequence of years of PMO because otherwise I see myself doomed, since I don't know how else could I fix my life. I have read accounts of plenty of people who have needed at least 2 years to recover. That would imply still a long way ahead unfortunately.
     
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  11. Abzu

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    you need to transmute that sexual energy into something productive
     
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  12. Yep and when you close to healing, then flatline return again.
     
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  13. Younameit

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    the problem is, some in flatline have no sexual energy to transmute
     
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