I don’t love myself

I know how that feels. Been going through a similar type of situation and telling myself that it is temporary, sometimes we must above everything else just have patience. Do what you can right now to make yourself better, if you feel powerless, take your time to rest and let things take their course. If this is very recurrent I would advise that you talk to a professional to help you work this out. In any case, here's something I've happened to stumble upon just yesterday:
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. - James 1:12

 

Amazing Quote blademaster87
God bless bro

 

How far are you into the reboot process? For me my old fetishes aren’t something I even seek to watch or wish to because I think it’s disgusting now. Although as much as I don’t watch that anymore I still don’t feel the same attraction I did to that, to real women and I’ve kinda just been in a flatline. Are you still watching p

 

I applaud your honesty.

truth will set you free.

I personally found freedom from this struggle once I did as Dr. Weiss says. He too is a Christian and was tired of failing as a sex addict and praying didn’t seem to make a difference.

He describes the key as sharing your faults with one another as we are told to do in the gospel of James ... that had a huge impact.

I found this works. Not just that but it’s the most important piece. I’ve been free since.