I am depressed. I am angry. I am sad. I will not forgive them.

hey man know this God is here for you we are here for you

 

I agree with you buddy,most nowadays people are only worth avoiding.I m lonely too but i m okay with that because i cut all fake friends from my life and i avoid negative and toxic people.I experience that much times,people who i helped when they need help after that those people just behave like idiots to me.On my job my fellows speak lies about me behind my back,but when we are alone those people are very nice face to face.
I get in verbal brawl with my best friend,i know him since i was 8 or 9 years old,can you guess why we get intro brawl?Girl who i liked,he come to her and tell her bad things about me,lies and my worst side.He lied to me even before that but i just behave like i didn't know,but after that i cut him off from my life.
Stay strong buddy life is shit sometimes and life is not fair.

 

true. most people only manipulate others. my 'friend' would whine to me for almost anything n i would listen to him patiently. when i shared my issue with him all he said was 'that's life'

i hate myself for befriending him.

 

Not really. such people find someone else to leech on to.

 

Don't blame others, is probably your fault more then you think.

 

I agree, as all my life I have met nothing but "wolfs in sheeps" clothing in my life. Very rarely have I met a really good person,

 

Before Nofap, and losing weight to change both my appearance and inside, i used to be alone, lonely, suicidal. Pp abandoned me, ignored me, treat me like i'm stupid and ugly. But look at me now, try to catch up every day, healthier, work harder. Pp gradually be fine to me. I was rejected and ignored by a boy i had a crush on. Now i just feel he's so selfish... And a lot of bad things in the past i don't forget how pp treat me badly back then. But i have to make peace with it and let it go.
And then, after Nofap, change myself, changed in a good way, I can easily make more connection. It also means i have to work harder, improve myself, keep being healthy, like a track of my life. Though i never forget what they did, cause i was suck in the past, but i was just trying to be nice to pp, but never get accepted. Now i'm okay, feel grateful, feel gratitude, this life i'm so lucky to be here and change it. I open to more friends and accept them into my life if before that they treat me kindly (In the past i don't really accept them, but now, i have to). And i just barely BE GOOD, AND FIRSTLY, BE RIGHT to people, include pp who made me sad and depressed before.
That's a long path of mindset, relentless mindset, struggling. Because why? Everyone has their own condition, circumstance, life of living, background, way of thinking. You can't expect them to change anything. But just learn how to accept this world. And be good, be right to everyone. And create more of your background, and live your live more present, give the best of it. This cruel life, that everything is fleeting. So friends that the ones i want to have, if i don't have much friends, that's fine. But your background, inside strength and knowledge and skill, you can't rely on anyone else but you.
The bottom line, the better your are, the more people surrounding you. The more people surrounding you, maybe you'll have more chance to find good friends who stays. I think that's the story of my life, or anyone else's life. And when you get better, you feel happier, and you're not angry anymore. It's not that you wear an angry or distanced face is good, no, cause i was treated badly because of it. You have to be more open to people, and accept them, and inside, practicing for your inner strength. It's like a circle of life that you never realize. The good you give, the good you take. I mean that life's rule. You barely can't do wrong of that.
So mindset again my friend. You have to work your ass off to change, about your relationships and your work.

 

It´s about respect. If you don´t stand up for yourself people will take advantage of you.
If you change the way you show yourself to the world, the world is going to change the way it interacts with you.

2 years ago i was in a bad moment so i showed like a beta male to the world. This girl i liked took advantage of it and asked me to do a lot of favors to her with nothing in return.
My life improved and i started to act more like an alfa when she asked me a BIG favor, and i just said no. She try to convice me to do it at all cost and got really mad at me because i refused again. Of course, she was so used to get free help from me that when she asked she assumed i would run to her and do it.
What happened? we never spoke again. I wasn´t usefull to her anymore. For me it was a win, i cut out this bad girl from my life and stood up for myself witch felt good.

 

i was an alpha in being a beta... if a friend asked me for some money, i'd give rightaway just for some validation... now i realize what a fool i was and such a beggar of validation. i've started saying 'no' now...