Day zero. Mindset - Very poor Staring at random women - 3-4 instances. Thinking about sex/past encounters - 3 times Difficult time- morning in the loo Guilt level- very high Meditation/ Devotional songs - nil
Day one Mindset- poor Staring at women- 2 Thinking about sex/past encounters-2 Difficult time- -- Guilt level- high Meditation/devotional songs- nil
Get your head out of the gutter and do something positive today. No perving on women either. Stay strong.
Day 7 Mindset - Average/Focused Staring at women - 0 (it's only 8am haha) Think about sex/past encounters - 0 Difficult time - Last night before sleep, very upset over recent breakup. Guilt level - low. I do however feel like my current streak is nothing and that I will only be happy again when I'm back to 2+ weeks. Meditation - I try every night but can't manage to block out my thoughts for longer than 3/4 minutes.
Confession. Yesterday I watched a gameshow on TV from the second it caught my eye until the end. Partly because the female contestant was young and beautiful. I didn't think about anything sexual but I did feel a little dopamine being secreted and my heart was beating a lot faster at the the sight of her. I felt excited to see someone so beautiful, I suppose. This didn't lead to a relapse and actually improved my mood a little. My prefrontal cortex had been strengthened as I did not give into any intrusive thoughts.
Day zero.... All these days I was not present in the community. Something bad happened yesterday. I watched porn. After almost 5 months. In these 5 months I used to m but it was never a problem. I always knew if not now I can come out of it in months. But watching porn, that came out of nowhere. It means I am degrading backwards. So need the help of the community yet again... Setting my clock to zero. And will start from today. Mindset- 0/10 Guilt level- 10/10 Will take one day at a time...
Okay...no progress at all.. as long as I don't come back on a regular basis, I will not improve. Take it seriously. Day zero.. It is embarassing for me at present but once I have some days on my back it will become comfortable. Day zero it is. For the next 10 days... One day at a time
Yes. Day one. And i am already having some bad thoughts. I think i have gone back to being worst and i have to lift myself up. One day at a time
It is getting tougher day by day to control. I used to relapse once every week. These days I almost relapse every day. Today is the 2 nd day and it feels like I have done a lot better. This forum has given me support. I hope I get that again as I surf against the tide....
