Anxiety and burning

BackFromDreamland · May 4, 2020

27 years old, been a porn user my whole life. I found my dads VHS collection at ~5 years old. I have extreme behaviour, it's not uncommon for me to PMO 4-5 times a day, the last few dry. I also have gone on extreme benders a lot. Probably about 100 or 200 nights or more of staying up all night 12-36 hours. By some miracle my system kept up but now it seems I have burned out to the end.

I wake up to my balls aching bad for the last couple weeks, and my dick tingles and burns in a bad way. I have given up for weeks and a few days a lot but I come back. And I am like a real addict in that I say I wont but I always manage to work in a few sessions here and there. Which add up a lot, 2 or 3 hours even.

I have started to get anxiety at night a lot. I think mainly due to serious health issues I have, but deeper I think it is because of PMO and this dark side strangling me. I'm better today than I was before, I don't stay up and avoid sleep with porn anymore.

I don't regret my porn use exactly. Kink interests me and I enjoy the exploration aspect more than anything. Going from straight and relatively innocent to pansexual and every kink under the sun (and no, this is not just the 'need harder drug' phenomena).

I hate it_I love it · May 4, 2020

Think about your life in the future. Are you ready to work for a better future or do you want anxiety for the rest of your life. I mean that knowing what’s important, you will start trying harder to make your life less miserable. In time you will have better control over yourself.

Deleted Account · May 4, 2020

Welcome to the forums

Deleted Account · May 5, 2020

Hey, welcome to the NoFap community
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It's nice to see you here fighting the good fight alongside us!
First let me go ahead and drop some helpful links for you:
Getting Started Guide / Forum Rules / How to Use the NoFap forums/ Glossary/ NoFap Panic button/
Set up your day counter /
Rebooting Resources/
Accountability groups (new!)/
About NoFap/ Support NoFap

Here is just some advice:
First and foremost please take a careful look at each section in the forum, there may be something(s) you will find to be of big help to you.

Secondly I advise you to be active on your profile(as there a few active people in the profile section). Please start by choosing an avatar and then begin posting frequent status posts to show you're active and needing support/encouragement.
The forum has got a neat little feature that shows freshly posted statuses for all users to see.
People will find your profile and give you support.

There’s a portion of people who love communicating in the profile section..(it should be and is )mostly spportive talk but it doesn't hurt to deviate from supportive conversations. It would be great to have you join in and become part of the team!
We support others in the threads, profile posts, and journals/reboot logs.
Once you receive some support, please be sure and be grateful to the member for the help/support you received and consider giving some in return to anyone you wish.

Thirdly, you should highly consider creating a public journal/reboot log (in the appropriate sectionfor you) to write about your days in depth for us members to follow along on your journey and offer support to you on.

Please start your journal in the correct section and with that, also try your best to post in the correct sections as it is mandatory and would be helpful to the mods who organize the forum. : )

Last but not least: Good luck on your journey here, make sure to really give it a try with all your heart!

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