Urges are killing me

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Deleted Account, Jun 5, 2020.

  1. Guys i’m writing this while resisting a ton of bounding and aching urges to dive deep back in to my porn addiction. my sleeping pattern has been fucked and since then i have been awake most of the times when the rest of my family is sleeping so i am left always pondering what will happen if i just broke my streak and enjoyed myself in those tough, lonely, desperate days i am having. I am supposed to study for my exams but i have no energy or motivation to, I feel very weak and incapable while resisting all those strong cravings, i am afraid i will fall after holding up for that long, i never abstained from porn for this long in my entire life. I have been visiting omegle (online video chatting) just for fun these days and may be it is playing a part in this frustration and tension. I also have flirted today with a girl i know on instagram and fantasized about her. I don’t know when will a wet dream ensue to evacuate some of the semen i have retained for this period. And how should i stop doing dumb things that remind me of my porn use like procrastination and social media use.
     
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  2. yassine90

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  3. r8js

    r8js Fapstronaut

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    Ur 21yr , young energetic guy.....
    urges r normal....

    We r told/showed to act badly on our urges, but if u have gf, spend some time with her.....

    Run
    Wash ur cloths bike cycle
    Pull ups excersize
    Try Atleast at 5 simple yoga
    Try listen motivation speeches
    Write down homework on big boards
     
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  4. thinking_differently

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    You got a good streak going on there! Well done! Dont relapse.

    What I have experienced about “feeling full”:
    1. Given too much attention, it feels even fuller.
    2. Hopes of a wet dream make urge to M devilish, (having led me to M.
    3. At this point if you edge, ur done for another week.

    Try this : Sit down on the floor, sit comfortably, close your eyes, and breathe in any way that makes you feel calm. Just sit there and avoid the thought of M.
    If you can’t sit calmly then just work the heck out! And then gradually calm down.

    This feeling will go soon. I haven’t had any of these on my current streak where I’m decidedly giving less importance to these urges.
     
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  5. Thank you for this great advice and support my friends, i kept resisting the urge and refusing it, i even called one of my friends who knows about my reboot from porn, I also made an oath that i won't let myself close to places or activities that remind me in any way of my porn use, I don't know why i have been visiting sites lately like Omegle which is full of wanking guys and horny people who I always stumble upon by chance. Although I have gotten disgusted and quickly have been quickly ending the chat but it just made the old pathway click again and reactivated it. Strengthening the upcoming urges. I was just about to fap yesterday when I decided that i am not going to end this long streak for just few moments of unnecessary pleasure. I think saying no to yourself every time is what weakens the addiction and re-establishes your confidence in your willpower and self-control. Choosing how to act on your urges and crazy thoughts that pop up in one's head. In those tough days, although saying no is the hardest pill to swallow and knowing that you won't be able to run away from your hardships and frustration to something that release plenty of fun and makes you euphoric, makes you stronger and bolder. It makes you know that there are abundance of healthy ways to enjoy your time, making good friends, enjoying a little song and a little breeze of air, things that may seem trivial but you get to better enjoy it and appreciate its presence in your life.
     
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  6. LoveIsAllWeNeed

    LoveIsAllWeNeed Fapstronaut

    So stay away completely from any of these sites. Rewiring means stopping any activities that reinforce old pathways.
     
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    1. Meditate.
    2. Put music and dance.
    3. Call a friend.
     
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  8. That's absolutely right, I think sometimes our minds trick us to get closer to the thing we are trying to stop in hope of falling back into it. Of course, how much I have tried, There will be that part of me that won't lose its affection to porn. Therefore, i have to fight it and train it to conform with the rest of the rational mind, to teach it that the normal stimuli experienced via getting intimate with someone I love and desire is going to be far superior to this empty kind of delight.
     
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