Hi there! New Fapstronaut Here.

Hey everyone. It's nice to meet everyone and scroll through all the posts. I can't wait to engage with this community.

A little background info:

I'm a 21 year old male. I discovered porn when I was about 12 but I've definitely viewed other sexual materials before then. I'm gay but I've definitely viewed women in a sexual manner. In many ways, because of my catholic, strict background and family, porn has really shaped my sexual history and life. I didn't really learn about relationships and sex from any other source.

Since that time, my porn habits have (at times) diversified into quite frightening genres that left me traumatised and afraid of myself. With some certainty I can say that I haven't actually watched porn of that nature since, but I am constantly afraid. Thankfully, I've also made the decision to start seeing a sexual therapist to overcome my shame and regret and other issues surrounding my sex life. Porn to begin with probably started as a means to escape my loneliness in my formative teenage years. Lately, it started to impact my daily life and led me to abandon all other responsibilities and activities in my life.

I do suffer from anxiety and depression. I'm a total control freak / perfectionist.

I've decided to quit porn more than once. I got pretty close but it pulled me back in again. I'm still single and definitely not ready for a relationship just yet (until I get a better hold on my porn usage.) Im quitting for myself, since one of my life goals is to just settle down and have a normal relationship with someone I love.

My reboot parameters are as such:

Firstly, I want to spend some time (at least the recommended 90 days) in order to reboot my brain so i no longer feel a pull as strongly to porn. During this time, I will be abstaining from porn, sex and orgasm. (Hence the streak so far haha).

Secondly after this, I would like to spend some time learning how to fantasise in a healthy fashion. This is because I think porn has warped my sense of what sex and masturbation and love entails.

Lastly, I'd like to end my reboot by trying to masturbate whilst having healthy fantasies and without resorting to porn. While I can admire some of you who choose to not masturbate at all, I think some masturbation is beneficial in someone's life. That's not to say I want to go back to masturbating for hours on end, but rather if the situation comes up I can deal with it in a constructive and healthy manner.

Tl:dr;

It's nice to meet all of you and im interested in talking to ya'll soon.

Peace.

 

I just dont really know how my parents would react. They're super strict and secretive about sex stuff. When I tried to talk to them about how I feel about guys they just decided to go full blown homophobes. Its a catholic thing right?? I think I'll look to my friends to hold me accountable but im very proud for you for getting your family involved. I think that's very brave. Can't wait to have a cleaner brain after the 90 days hahah.

Good luck with that girl! Hope it goes amazing!

Peace.

 

No problem!
I think eventually I will tell my parents, but it'll be once im over the hump (halfway there) and getting better you know what I mean? We'll see.