My Life- I want it BACK.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Ray Black, Jun 5, 2015.

  1. Ray Black

    Ray Black New Fapstronaut

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    Hello Everyone,
    The name is Ray. My goal is to porn free for life. im 23, (24 in aug) i want to give up this addiction. i need to. i need my life back. The double life isn't for me anymore. i know it will be hard but all i ask is for support without the judgement and ridicule i fear of if i told my family and friends. Im a great guy and i want to meet a great woman one day that i want to really love and care for. I havent really "lived" with this addiction. Ever since i was exposed to it around 9 or 10 i always wanted to watch it. as i got older i would get mags and DVDs and hide them or go on the computer and look it up eventually i got caught by my parent boths on different occasions and i saw that it hurt them especially my mom. (might i add that i was raised in a christian home (mom mostly)) and i still didn't learn my lesson. i was a kid. Now i realize that i was addicted at such a young age. Then time went by and now i was more wise with when and how i would watch it. that was when i got my own phone. long story short im in college now im not a virgin and i just want my life back. i don't want to think with my jr but with my brain. i want to stop objectifying woman. i want to really live and really really love again.

    Signed, a broken man.
     
  2. Phibz

    Phibz Fapstronaut

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    I don't usually respond to comments left by 20something year olds. Simply because I'm 45 and I couldn't fathom having been ready for this at such an age. But you seem sincere and mature. And I think you are extremely fortunate to have come to this point at such an age. This is the place for you. I will tell you from an older guy's experience. This isn't a quick fix. It's like obesity. Fad diets won't work. It's a lifestyle change. It won't make a lot of sense at first. But the more you get educated, the more you will understand. I wish you well on your journey. Welcome.
     
  3. Ray Black

    Ray Black New Fapstronaut

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    Thanks man. I really appreciate your response. I didn't think I would get a response. I need this change in my life or else i can see I won't have a life, or wife. It's been some days now and there have been temptations but forced myself not to think about it. One thing I don't look forward to is night because it's tempting. Through out the day I'm good trying to think of positive thoughts and listening to motivational videos. Now I'm socially anxious. I'm a person that can be in my head and i hate it!! I...hate...it.