I hate this. This may truly be one of the worst addictions to have out there. At least with drug addictions you can talk to family and friends about it without feeling ashamed. I'm at a loss at this point. Such minuscule occurrences can be a trigger for my desires at this point. I don't know what to do. Everything seems hopeless. I want to be happy again. I need to quit. How, though? How do I stop this horrible monster I created out of my own selfishness and idiocy? Please. I can't even last a week at this point. It's pathetic.
Be patient and stay strong. Don't be so hard on yourself. Small progress is still progress. Let's say for example you masturbate once a day. Then you reduce it to once every 2 days. You'd still be addicted but it is progress. See where you are at and keep trying to reduce it. It is OK if you haven't completely cured yourself yet. It'll take time.
I feel you, i have been on and off after a long streak and after the first days of relapse i feelt horryble and hopeless but trust me brother it will get better. Believe in yourself and stay in the path, things are tough now but in the future you will look back and be proud of what you acomplished by quiting porn. Just make small progress, try to stay porn free for some days and even if you fail you can still be proud that you stayed in the path for longer you believed was possible.
Honestly, what really helped me get started was getting a program to block websites on my browser. At first I'll be freaking out trying to get my fix, but when you realize everything you have to go through to get around the software, it doesnt seem worth it and youre forced to find something else to do. I suggest if you go that route, have someone, preferably an accountability partner, create and hold on to the password so you don’t have easy access to get around it. And put it on every device that has internet. You can do this. If you shame yourself for relapsing, it will only push you back to porn sooner and deeper. Be proud of the fact that you had the courage to come on this forum to look for help an encouragement. I suggest doing it more often, not just when you relapse or when you feel urges. I've been making this forum part of my daily routine and it is encouraging. You can read people's stories and remind yourself that youre not the only one going through this. The people who are clean for month, had to be clean for a week first. People clean for a year, started with a month. It's a process. Just like the posts above me said. It's small but powerful advice if you believe it and utilize it.
You need to unlock your mind somehow. Everyone has the ability, and I believe everyone something that will motivate them to succeed. You need to discover what that motivator is for you. Yeah it's hard, but I encourage you not to have a pessimistic attitude. Acceptance will take less of a toll on your mind, while still allowing you to be focused on your goals.
