Withdrawals are is literally the embodiment of “hell on earth”

New to the forum, I’ve been trying to quit porn for 3 years now (time flies) I’m 22 years old and the only thing that has stopped me from rebooting is me, due to the terrible withdrawals. I am currently experiencing anxiety that is so crippling that simply talking to family has become a burden (I still live with family, I’m a student). Going to work is nearly becoming an impossible task do to the amount of anxiety and brain fog that accompany it. I literally feel so much fear and stress in my chest when I’m at work that I have to sometimes hide in the bathroom not to mention the massive pressure in the frontal lobe of my head followed by episodes of confusion and poor short term memory during withdrawal. I’m also dealing with insomnia and serious depression from this.

When I’m out especially at work I have all this shit hit me at once which puts me in a zombie like state of being tired, you could see it in my eyes, ppl that I’ve went to HS with would run into me on the job and ask “are you ok”? This is very troubling, especially for a person that isn’t natural introverted or shy.

Not to mention in this state people, especially coworkers oftentimes try so assertive themselves when I’m this state which makes me have to take the little energy I have left to check them. I’ve noticed people are very vampiric in nature. They see you’re not like yourself and began to try to prey on you, my own family does this to me while I’m in this state even after I opened up to them about this, that just turned into them talking behind my back.

This made me realize how fucked up/fake and sneaky people are in general, when you’re feeling good they act nice and want to be around you do to the energy you’re emitting to feed off of, not necessarily because they fucks with you. kinda like how People want to be around people that’s successful it’s not the person that they like but the idea of success (type of energy)that they are emitting. The only ppl that I noticed don’t try to kick me while I’m down is the people that aren’t really low vibrational people. They’ll just keep their distance but not act fucked up towards me since they see I’m going through something.

Even though I feel like shit and suicidal thoughts are racing through my head and I’m surrounded by people that makes it worse and try to dominate me in this state. It opened my eyes to the nature of people, I always knew people had they shit with em, but not to this extent. When I’m in the process of trying to get professional help and nine times outta ten I’ll have to resign from my job to give myself a time to relax and properly reboot without having to deal with external bull shit also.

 

I Appreciate the reply, I should’ve joined this forum a long time ago, people that aren’t going through it wouldn’t / don’t care to understand. Once I overcome this I want to start a non profitable organization that exposes the danger of porn while providing free treatment centers nation wide to cure people of this addiction especially men, we have so much working against us right now both known an unknown. I am not a conspiracy theorist put porn is one of the many weapons to keep us subordinate, if you keep the men of a nation weak the women will naturally obey.

 

I see where you coming from, but the reason why I’m currently not working out is due to the withdrawal, I’ve always have and still due hold a muscular Physique. I’m not one of these guys that sat around all his life doing nothing shy an awkward, me stopping pmo and the withdrawals put me in this state. I’ve always played sports currently I’m getting into boxing so I have to be in shape and watch what I eat. What I’m feeling is due to my strong addiction to pornography (11 years) nothing more and nothing less.

 

Real talk, I have female managers that try to get off fucking with me In subtle ways, this is a huge shocker as far the shift in people’s perception of you. Male and female coworkers before the withdrawal is quite submissive and I mean that in a non egotistical way. I’m usually giving much respect. But do to the mental space withdrawal put me in it activates the energetic predator in people. Even the quit coworkers get a lil spunky with me. It’s very interesting to observe non the less. It shows how much we are still animal and the survival of the fittest mentality we have ingrained in our biology.