I'm only a week in. I have PIED. I'm married and haven't had a meaningful erection in almost 3 years and maintaining one has been longer than that. My porn consumption has exponentially increased in the last 3-4 years, but I've been consuming porn since Jr High or earlier. I started the 10 day challenge last week, but I already failed today. Starting over right now. I will get through this. I beat alcohol and have been sober 10 years. This too shall pass.
I relapsed twice after 6 months or so from porn each time. I’m currently 6 months and 1 days or so free from that relapse. I have learned a lot in my struggle with porn. One, is what triggers me. A lot on the internet and tv triggered me(seeing beautiful women). I believe my last relapse was super bowl halftime show, I didn’t relapse that night, but like a week or two after it, but those images stayed with me and I kept wanting more, even after 6 months. I also researched And watched videos of the science behind it all and it releases dopamine In your brain and scary how the addiction can become when I thought I could control it. the ways I feel like I have conquered it for good was that I had my wife put in an adult filter password that I don’t know what it is(it could be a friend if not married). It’s my backup plan when having a bad day and can’t see the adult sites. I also don’t watch shows that could trigger me and try to turn my head if I think a scene is coming. More importantly though, I have really grown in my faith with God. I have listened to so many sermons on temptations and that has helped me tremendously. Rick Warren and Greg Laurie are 2 of my favorites and have helped me a ton!! I learned about all the garbage I was putting in my mind. The analogy was how we have to watch what we eat, we can’t eat McDonald’s fried food every meal without bad consequences, the same thing applies with what you consistently put in your mind. Hopefully this helps and try and learn as much as possible and avoid whatever gets you tempted and triggered. Get going on another streak and make it a lifestyle change and don’t beat yourself up if you have a relapse. Just learn from it and keep trying to do better.
Thank you. I do enjoy Rick Warren and Greg Laurie myself. I need to dive deeper into their stuff right now. This not being able to go to church crap is driving me crazy. Thank you for the input!
Yea, it has greatly helped me. Yea, I’m ready to see church again. At least that’s one positive with technology is you can still hear sermons. The bad with technology is way to easy access for porn and getting away with it. Keep working on fixing what goes in your mind and even if relapse, figure out why it happened, was it a bad day, seeing a movie, or out in public seeing someone trigger it.
