Hi guys Its the first time I m posting to this forum but I ve found it really helpful reading your experiences during my streak Thanks a lot guys! I m 41 years old and i ve been fapping almost everyday since my 16th.. 25 years of disgust There are many reasons I ve decided to start nofap (semen retention actually) 1. I got hocd a very painful mental illness that makes you constantly questioning your sexual orientation It s a hell Many of my friends started suspecting that I m gay 2. Havent had a successful relationship for the last 10 years 3. Lost confidence with girls Althought I consider myself good looking I workout a lot, eating healthy and was getting a lot of approaching from women I was getting nervous and scared making a move forward So I decided to give semen retention a try For 75 days I noticed a lot of benefits My confidence has rised up a lot I see women as human beings (mostly) than sexual objects so this helps with my interractions a lot Hocd is still here but I can manage it a lot easier Wim hof breathing and cold showers helped a lot to stay focused on my mission which was a 110 day streak I ve reached a very blissful state of mind A week ago, after noticing this mental strength boost, I decided I should quit smoking ( maybe that wasnt the right time for it) Since then I ve got nervousness, fatigue and many other smoking withdrawal symptoms Till last night In my anxiousness I thought that its been a while since I got an erection and I wanted to check out if this thing down there still works I ve watched 5 minute of P It was a very addicting experience Although I got the erection I wanted on the first minute , I kept watching I wanted more I did not M but feelings of guilt are surrounding me today I get the urge to go watch some more I really hope it fades away soon Althought it doesnt feel like I ve reset the counter its more like that slip last night will cost me a delay on reboot Do you think that was a relapse? Stay strong guys This nofap thing actually gets results Firstly on your mental health Just be patient
Oooooohhhh no After my almost 3 month streak that one relapse kept me in a cycle I cant resist pmo ing everyday Please help
That's a bummer, but I guess you just get back on the bicycle? I'm no expert and very new to the forums so I don't have any profound wisdom to share. My very personal opinion is that relapse is just an integral part of recovery. It happens, and beating yourself up about it may not be of much use. Repeat to yourself all the reasons you stopped PMO before, maybe write them down, and start anew. Good luck!
I'll tell u what happened to me. I watched porn at day 170 like a 2 hour binge but didnt MO. I felt okay for 3 days then slowly dopamine levels drop to a certain level (i think), withdrawals comes hitting. To my surprise it felt just like a full blown pmo relapsed but the feelings and withdrawals are milder. Those depressed feelings around 3rd or 4th week just hit me yesterday. Like a small flatline. Couldn't control my anger and emotions. I think it definitely scratch my streak but i didnt want to reset my 6 months streak because i will feel even more devastated throwing all that down into the drain (even though its not). I will take it as a 2 months delay on my current streak and move on. Conclusion, watching P is almost the same as PMO so be wary! Edit: comrade please dont try or test. Just dont because u dont need to and it will slow down progress. Take it from a severe PIED guy like me. You will heal and do great but with a lot of time required, just focus on being a better person.
Something strange happened today... After that 3 day relapse cycle, i ve managed to keep a 17 day hard mode again... Today, too tired after a busy day, I went to the bank There was a nice looking girl in front of me and she looked me straight in the eyes for a moment ( beautiful blue eyes) That was enough of a trigger Went home to sleep but couldnt resist to MO thinking of her That was very intense and didnt last more than a minute The strange thing is that I dont feel guilt as when i relapsed to P I feel as i ve had a wet dream I m not sure yet about what will be the consequences of this kind of relapse What are your thoughts about MOing to a girl you like(d) I think M is a natural activity
Ok thanks I guess no nut november will help me find my way The thing is when i was MOing to Prone i felt much worse Yesterday s incident didnt affect my mental clarity by much
