I keep relapsing I try and try again to succeed but no same shit as usual and I still wanna try but there's something in me saying that I just don't care anymore, porn has affected my life such as social skills, college work, anxiety depression etc but I don't really care anymore I should don't get me wrong but before let's just say a year a go I be mad and upset and frustrated knowing I shouldn't of done that and decide to be a man try again but now every time I relapse I don't care like I don't care it will affect the rest of my life.
Yup.. Ive been were u are deep in a dark black hole.. Seeing no light at the end of the tunnel.. Even felt like committing suicide sometimes.. Its natural when your dealing with hard relapses.. Thats how serious of a problem PMO is.. It can drive u to lengths u never thought it could.. Just dont give up bro.. Eventually it will pass and youll find that momentum.. Just know that what ur feeling now, I ve felt aswell.. Ur not alone, fr.. Good luck..
Sounds like an excuse. It's you who decide to follow the addiction or not. Porn isn't even the problem, it's not obligating you to watch it. You have the choice to do it or not. From what I read in your comment, I think all you need is to develop some ownership for what you do, face the problem, and be a leader with that addictive part of yours. Be a friend to yourself, be honest, and don't let your addictive brain control you.
I just wanted to watch a couple of porn videos on twitter...instead got here, read some of the comments here, freaked out and all the temptation was suddenly gone. Proceeding to day 2 !!
In addition you have to understand how to use technology wisely. Just a detox won't reach the desired results. Also, when you are trying to get rid of a habit, replace it with another one. But this new habit should help you in healing your mental health