Space Marine January - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

Thank you so much brother! See you in February! Stay strong and give those demons some sword "kisses".Cheers!

 

One positive thing is that I did not want to "binge". Only the thought of it made me feel immature. And the will to keep fighting, is still there, all alive. See you next month brother!

 

Hello
Unfortunately I must report that I relapsed today. I failed the Dark Angels.
Woke up today and for some reason just felt incredibly aroused. I started fantasying and edging throughout the morning then I relapsed early afternoon. There's no excuse, looking back I could've stopped at any time. What's worse I also lost a lot of time I could've been working on my University work

 

Damn I feel you brother.

Have you asked yourself what "excuses"/thoughts stopped you from doing so?
I always try to analyse them and get a right response to these lies for the next time

 

Sad to hear that. You had a great streak.
If you don’t mind I have an advice. All those who relapsed just forget it and start practicing to expel out all those emotions, urges on a daily basis take it as a challenge though you all aren’t in it.

I hope you people return back with the best you have. See ya all soon.

 

Do you exercise?
Exercise is good for overall physical health. Start meditating too(moreover some breathing exercises as basic and you could move further like focusing and concentration)

 

Day 4 completed
Day 5 checking in.
-Black Templars-

 

Checking in for the Black Templars! Nothing to report. Five days in and I haven't really had a visit from the chaser effect, which is fine with me. I haven't had a chance to go running for several days, though, and I'm getting twitchy!

 

CHeckin day 5 for Black templars
did a bit of procrastination (15min) this morning wich is always a bad sign, but I do fine now.

 

Month 0/12

Holding the ground.

We are the wolves Awwwwwwwwwwwoooo...

We are one pack, we hold our ground and we are the hunters of this land.
With Gods Grace and Might when we aim for a target we dont miss it and when we start our chase we dont rest until our prey falls and we tear it down.

We are the hunters and where we roam we are the masters of that land.

Awwwwwwwwww

 

Sorry ladies and gents, man down. A very attractive friend was flirting hard with me by text and basically drove me over the edge - I can't excuse myself, I didn't explicitly ask for her to do what she did but I definitely didn't discourage it. Keep fighting the good fight guys, I'll see you again in February

 

Mate I hope it's just man down and not man totally out.. reengage

 

Urges were/are so stong rn. really had to change my mindset. Its crazy rn

 

@EndPornLiveLife I jumped into the 7day challenge. I think I havent completed that one since october, so this seems like good enough challenge to start with.

Thb I struggle to see the significance of nofap. When I was on longer streak (30day+ - only 2times in 2years) I definetely felt some positive impact, but right now, its hard to remember how I felt.
When I think about the reason which resonates the most with me. Its the mentioned girls attention, that girls find you attractive, or drawn to you for whatever reason.
The other benefits like more energy, higher self-esteem because you managed to discpline yourself and tame the urges, resonate with me too and would say is the number 2 and 3, but its not like I have to do this nofap thing to get higher energy, motivation, self-esteem, I think I never had issue with these topics.
I find it very strange that the only very important thing, which should be my number 1reason, I dont really care about much.
The number one reason why to do nofap for me as prone masturbation addict should be: Quit proning and save my penis sensitivity, health.
But for whatever reason I just dont find it that important. Scares me a bit.

And now writing this, I am starting to feel that agressive energy, that anger on myself, that I am not able to help myself, even tho I know It would be very beneficial if I stopped proning every 2-3days.

I think my end goal for another challenge is to start building some minor streaks. I mean yes It doesnt sound big and shiny, but when I am not able to reach 1week for months now, setting a cold turkey goal just doesnt seem like the best option and track record says it doesnt work for me. I will try to have no more than 1relapse till the end of this month. Next challenge I should be ready to go at least halfway. I think the last 3challenges I didnt survive week1, which is very shameful.
Avoid binging after the 1st relapses is the most important -> I start building the habit of not followin trough once I "failed"

Didnt intend to write this long post in here, but it happened, just like my relapses

Anyway GL in this challenge! Go get it Dark Angels!

 

@T0mCrus4der Hang in there! How do you plan to change your mindset? Whats your startegy?

 

Whaaaaat, nobody told me there was a new challenge starting! Is it too late to sign up? Because I'd like to join the Black Templars.

 

Hey @EndPornLiveLife! Long time! I see you are in charge of the challenge this month! I have lost my way as a soldier and PMOed yesterday! Actually I have been struggling since being with my girlfriend on the 31st of December and 1st of January. Before that I was doing really well.

I would like to rejoin the ranks of the Blood Angels and work my way up to Deathwatch once again. Thanks!