Space Marine January - Team Deathmatch (CLOSED)

We must respect the wolf.

A wolf never gives in on the hope for a kill.

A wolf never gives up the chase.

He is undefeated from inside out.

I present to you "The hunt"

 

Eh... not exactly thrilled to join a team that sounds evil, but it's largely trivial anyway. At least I could join. Thanks.

Just recently had a reset, but I know why and plan to change up my routine to combat it. Let's go!

 

This is absolutely true. This was the key mistake! I got so confident that on my day 43 I entertained some thoughts in my head too, to test if I was stronger than them...to test if it would make me relapse... dumbest thing I ever did!!!
I struggled 3 days with heavy urges after that ... the only thing that saved me was the App called MDF: Streak Based Wallpapers and all of my friends on here who prayed for me.
Then I prayed for God to make a wall of fire around me to protect me fron the demons, bc it says in Zechariah 2:5 „I will be a wall of fire around Jerusalem..“ and I got super hot and my head was burning too. I think God was burning the thoughts.
After that I had peace of mind again.
That is my true story bro!!
So I didn’t relapse, thx to my great NoFap friends and God.
Now almost 100 days after that extreme temptation, I hope God continues to protect me.
Also had a dream I was doing M and don‘t remember if I really did or if it was just a dream... but I remember clearly my thoughts in the dream I was telling myself „I will never last until marriage without doing this... „it‘s humanly impossible“.
But when I woke up I realised those thoughts were rubbish and I feel peaceful about the whole thing atm. Get back up, you can do this brotha‘!!

 

Why do you do this to yourself?
That‘s super dangerous. In fact, it‘s a trap.
Two years ago, before ever joining NoFap I went to confession and confessed this sin... was free almost 30 days... then started to get this desire to see, what I would call „soft-porn“. By that I mean just images where someone is lightly clothed or a lap dance or so...
Over time that turned into watching P again.
Please everybody realise, the disire to see any kind of arousing material, even if it‘s just a pretty girl in a tank top, is a trap by the Devil to lure you back into porn... it happend again to me in my 40s of my streak. But I KNEW from my experience two years ago, that it was a trap.
My NoFap friends, this awesome community, and God, have been the reason for me to reach 30+ days, which I never attained before in my life!!
On day 150 now, by his Grace!
Since they prayed for me in my 40s when I had heavy urges I have had no desire to see any form of „soft-Porn“.
But also a key is to spend time in God‘s presence daily, that can mean good music, nature, prayer, Bible...painting . It can mean many things...meditating as many do here.
And only watch good things... consume as if to become... I also watched stupid college campus interviews on YouTube in my 40s when I had the strong urges and temptations.... the wanker-responses to questions like „would you wait till marriage?“ really triggered me. You see, it was a bad influence.
So this is my wisdom ... you decide what you let yourself get influenced by, by deciding what you watch and who you hang out with and who you listen to...
what you consume is what you will become
consume as if to become
God strengthen you with his Grace brotha“!
What if our blessings depended on our faith?

That to your temptations.
Now let me ask again...
Do you remember how you felt the first time you saw P? What did you feel, what did you think?
It‘s okay if you don‘t say your conscience was shouting at you to leave, like it was for me... it‘s okay if you say it was like paradise... I get that .

 

Best advice a priest once gave to me:

Do you know what the only medicine against this (PM) is?
I say „No.“
He said „If you fall, get back up.“
Kept those words in my heart and followed his advice and started to slowly improve.
Now with the support of you amazing guys too, look at my streak now!

 

@EndPornLiveLife I love your „Today I will not because“ posts... smart approach and an much needed reminder.
And thank you for hosting and managing this challenge this month!!
Your presence is an enrichment to us, you. just. make everything better . and you make a difference!

 

Day 6 done
Day 7 checking in.
-Black Templars-

 

Checking in for the Black Templars! Non nobis, Domine!

@EndPornLiveLife Thank you for reminding me about the HALT acronym! I have heard it before and I thought it was helpful back then, but for a while it was bouncing around in the back of my head and I couldn't recall it. I think I also saw "stressed" listed as one of the red flags, so that it becomes HALTS.

 

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Hi everyone! Magnus is back still on track. Hope you are doing fin
I want to celebrate these first days of the new year with two new memes especially crafted for the warriors on this thread: one for the proud Space Marine, the other for the blessed Sisters of Battle.
My apologies for the typo in the second meme.

 

Check in day 7
+ I'm half way through Xenos from the Eisenhorn series..
bc this is my first book (/anything related to wh40k) so I don't get the memes at all haha

 

Great to hear it T0m! Mr. Eisenhorn and his Xenos adventure were my gateway to the WH40k universe too! Loved the book, the characters and how well balanced the story was, especially in the larger context of the setting.

 

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Reporting for the Space Wolves!

 

Checking in.

 

Man about to down here.

Today was one of those days which can be best described as a b.... I am doing some substanse abuse to keep my mind off things and as a reward to the hard work so far. However it feels like a trap. Dont know but have to keep my sanity somehow.

 

Sure, I'll join.