A risky plan....

Hullo people, porn and masturbation addiction hits very hard and me personally, have been addicted mainly to masturbation.... the urges hit when am low, stressed, depressed or unhappy about somethin and don't really have ways to cope with these other stuff in my life. I find myself running to raunchy pictures or videos just to get off and then after that i feel like i need to hang myself...

had a no pmo plan for this month but still not doing so well.

am 25, a virgin(never had sex with a chic) and i always feel terrible seeing all these cute chics around me but i know deep down i have no confidence to approach and also know erectile dysfunction and premature ejaculation will get in the way....i have tried with chics.. i just get scared and assume i wont do well in bed.... performance anxiety of sorts then i chicken out.....

i badly want to get laid... and my plan is this
go 30 days hard mode no PMO/SOCIAL media/internet..... then after those 30 days,
I PLAN TO HAVE SEX WITH A PROSTITUTE. i assume i wont have to deal with those feelings of rejection i fear getting when trying out with normal girls and i think its a way to test myself with a real woman since the prostitute won't judge as long as i pay...

am just sick of not having girls come my way, not knowing what real sex feels like, and seeing all these cute chics but i know i may not succeed to take em to bed coz am not confident enough...
i have also tried suicide just coz of the shame and how bad i feel evertime i look in the mirror and know that despite the fact that i see these chics, they wont really get into me sometimes I'm hard on myself saying that it wouldve been me with that nice chic i see with another guy and the self anger hits real bad that i almost don't want to do anything at all....

SO I PLAN TO GET A PROSTITUTE FOR A NIGHT.....
i will pay and i have even practiced with condoms to keep myself safe...


just advise me please

 

yeah i WANT to do better.... maybe i should first focus more on recovery than geting laid.... amd if i do the reboot better, then the gurls Will come. Though sonetimes am A bit too anxious and i want to try even the riskiest of things.... like that hooker thing

 

you're right.... I've never tried but hookers seem to be nasty business..... lemme try recovery first

 

Thanks guys for the feedback.... but how do i get past this barrier if shame, guilt, and anger that i haven't yet had a real relationship despite having all these girls around me.....
what do you advise
am i being too hard on myself? should i let that go and give myself time? and what could i do when the guilt,or regret of missed opportunities comes?

 

i also don't really know how to deal with rejection... i end up continuously thinking about the girls av missed out on and it makes me feel unworthy..... most of the times its when i fap.... when am not feeling great.....

maybe i should quit girls for the entire reboot till i feel better about myself

 

thanks man.... maybe I'm too hard on myself.... i could focus more on the reboot and also clean up my habits and character then maybe i'll find the right woman.... guess all this pressure is just misleading

 

Thanks man.... 30 days is the focus now... if 30, then maybe 60, 90 days of complete reboot