Explain What Giving Up Porn Means to You (daily)

I'm giving up porn because I am starting over once again. A new phase of my life begins and I finally want to get rid of porn. I have been watching porn for over 10 years now and it sucks. I want to enjoy my sex life as much as possible, and I want to have the ability to abstain from sexual activity altogether when necessary. As an adult I should be able to decide when I'm engaging in sexual activities. This should not be dictated by behavioural patterns and addiction. As long as I'm watching porn I can never trust my desires. That's why I'm giving up porn.

 

I'm giving up porn because I want to unlearn those behavioural and emotional patterns. Yesterday, I read a news paper article about a porn actress and it immediately triggered me. I was able to resist, but it was a close call. This strong urge was triggered by reading about porn alone, the article did not include anything sexual and was focused on her persona and career choices. This shows how hardwired to this reaction I am. The word porn needs to show up and I immediately want to fap. This is not how a sane person acts on anything! I want to get over this kind of emotional state where I'm basically always triggered. To do this, I need to abstain for porn for an extended period of time. The last time I've been over 90 days is longer than 2 years ago, and back then I was feeling amazing. I want to return to that state of being independent of porn and not even thinking about it a lot. To get there I will focus on building the person I want to be.

 

I'm giving up porn because it is necessary to improve myself. I have so many vices and I cannot let a single one of them survive, as it is the same as with weeds in a field - if you leave a single one around it will multiply and quickly occupy all the places where you eradicated the other weeds. Porn is one of these vices and it has to be weeded out.

 

I'm giving up porn because I understand that free dopamine kills motivation; especially on the long turn. If I can just lie down and feel good without doing anything relevant then I will do this as often as possible, and it will wear me down. During the last 2 years, I've become a person that has a very hard time enjoying life because it's always procrastinating life. It's always tomorrow when I'm going to start over again. Why am I doing this? For instant gratification. I've become super addicted to instant gratification and porn is just one way this manifests in my life. I want to be in charge of the boat I'm on, and I ultimately want to get control of the instant gratification monkey. I mean - I know he's there and he always will be, but I can ignore him for most of the time. If I learn how to do this it will enable me to give my life purpose again. I am sad with the way I've been living up to now and I need to change my behaviour in order to achieve a satisfactory life and a contempt state of mind. Porn is in the way of achieving that. That's why im giving up porn.

 

I'm giving up porn because I want to build a character that is capable of success on the highest professional and personal level. I want to be someone that chooses whatever is hard, not whatever is easy and grows through his challenges. This kind of person does not watch porn. Porn makes me emotional unstable and way too susceptible to my feelings. Feelings are good as they can guide our decisions. After all they have evolved over a long period to help us survive. But they cannot be in control of our lives. Any action that we feel we have to take has to pass the test of reason and doing otherwise is utterly dangerous. Even if I feel I should use porn, the use of porn does not pass the test of reason, as its benefits are greatly outweighed by its harms. That's why I'm giving up porn.

 

I'm giving up porn because it feels amazing to be clean. I already went one week without it, so why should I not be able to go my whole life without it? Getting a glimpse of what it feels like to live without brainfog shows me how amazing life can be. When I am on porn I just watch live through a filter. It prohibits me from feeling the good and the bad. By suppressing my feelings some things get easier, but, overall, I become unsatisfied. I forget how happy I am to be alive, what a gift it is, and how we have to seize every single day before it passes. To cite Seneca: "Life is long if you know how to use it." I don't want to die one day thinking about everything I have missed throughout my life. I want to enjoy and look forward to every single day, for life is a gift of unmeasurable beauty. Porn takes so much of that. That's why I'm giving up porn.

 

That would be cool, like a selection of 365 for each day of the year to get a take from one person from the community...

To me, it's about living a real life. I think of that scene at the end of Vanilla Sky (yes I'm an American with no culture or Spanish who hasn't watched Abre Los Ojos even if I know about it) where he says those words and jump off the building in the VR environment. Giving up porn (at least the sexual kind alone - vs. others such as food porn or whatever other form - for a person with an identity around being a parent it may be parenting porn like Leave it to Beaver or something if anyone even knows that reference, which is non-sexual) alone won't make that sweeping change across the board sure, but it's part of the same instinct to not live in a story. Even functional stories, say a nice recovery philosophy you can get behind - that would have to be a tool rather than what I perceive as reality. There's a difference between what works and what's real. (and what REALLY works is ultimately going to be based on what's real anyway right)

 

I'm giving up porn because I am going to be the best version of myself that I can be. I will not let anything get in the way of achieving that.

 

I'm giving up porn because I cannot be happy while I have this habit. Porn makes me unable to make any good decisions. It slows me down mentally and physically. Life is just so much worse when I'm on porn. That's why I'm giving up porn.

 

I'm giving up porn because it is an addiction as bad as any other. I don't want to life the life of an addict, and I want success. Thus: No porn for me!

 

I'm giving up porn because it is a useless habit that I do not need in my life. It distracts me from what is really important and it opens the door for other distractions to come in. It creates brainfog, which makes focus harder, which in return makes overall life harder. I want to go about life in a calm, focused and confident manner. I can only do this if I take my tasks and finish them in a calm, focused and confident manner. Porn destroys my calm - it stirs me up and makes me anxious and restless. Porn destroys my focus - brainfog and urges prevent me from focusing on what I want. Porn destroys my confidence - it makes me feel like a fucking loser and creates disgust for myself. Porn contradicts everything else I want in life, and that's why I'm giving up porn.

 

I'm giving up porn because it makes me lazy. I do not finish my tasks on porn-days, and I fall back to procrastination and binging whenever I watch porn. Nothing of this makes me any happy and that's why I should abstain from porn. Also, I believe that I deserve better recreation than watching porn. While it creates some short excitement to watch porn it usually leaves me unsatisfied, only craving for more. Other forms of recreation, like reading, sports and meeting people, leave me satisfied and truly happy. That's why the time wasted with porn is not only wasted work time, but also wasted time for recreation, that could be used much better.