Hi I relapsed yesterday im gonna say what happend I was in my room alone and too horny and i decided to face the urge but in an idiotic way I closed the door pulled my pants off and started telling myself what in the hell i should do After seconds i started rubbing my penis but i controlled myself and no orgasm happend What i understood from this relapse was that i dont need orgasm anymore because i felt better after rubbing even though there was no orgasm But i know even just rubbing my penis is wrong and i should do sth instead to face the urges Im going to use music instead of porn and thoughts of sex from today im not in a good mood right now to tell it but i have two stories i exprienced from fallout 4 and im gonna share it tomorrow P=21 M=1 O=21 Wish me luck Day 21
Hi Last was good nothing serious happend and i think i handled everythig pretty well Promised two share those fallout 4 exprience i mentioned earlier so im gonna share one of them and leave one for tomorrow I just finished a misson dont worry aint going to spoil it At the end the guy offered half the share of the job and if your charisma level is 10 you you have an option to convince anyone to any level so i told him 50 50 isnt enough is so then he lowered his share to 60 40 and then i said 90 10 he tought i was joking and again and again lowered his share to 70 30 to get out of this with atleast some cash Then i said u know what? I thinl i'll take the whole cash then he lowered his share 90 10 and said hes not going lower than that if i want his 10% i should kill him for it I was just going to do that but suddenly my companion thought it was a good time to chat and he got away with 10% I think it was very funny I'll share it here if i encounter any problems P=22 M=2 O=22 Wish me luck Day 22
Hi Last day was good too It was a boring day but wasnt the worst Nothing serious happend yesterday so im going to tell that other story on fallout 4 and its a bit shorter than last one So my companian was using drugs too much and couldnt be cured by doctors So she asked me to bring her to a vault i dont remember what number it was And there we found a device that could remove all her deseases in seconds and i thought about a real device that could cure pmo just like that Well its not going to happen and i dont have any intentions of giving up but i think it was woth mentioning P=23 M=3 O=23 Wish me luck Day 23
Hi Passed a good day again No urges no nothing Handled myself pretty well Attended an online meeting about nofap last night and i think it can seriously help Talking with others that share the same problem with you can help and i think talking about these thoughts is the best way to express our feelings P=24 M=4 O=24 Wish me luck Day 24
Hi So another good day No serious urges Played video games alot Played fortnite, the last of us part 2 and fallout 4 for a total of i think 3-4 hours Today im gonna watch vertigo And one thing i realised yesterday is that i have to start doing sth productive and use the time and energy i have to actually do sth i mean not just passing the days P=25 M=5 O=25 Wish me luck Day 25
Hi Spent another good day Watched vertigo Played some videogames Attended the nofap meeting Ate cheeseburger Didnt exercise too much But totally, it was a good Except the bad dream last night that i dreamt about masturbating with Shakira Im just going to forget it P=26 M=6 O=26 Wish me luck Day 26
Hi guys relapsed again and im gonna share the whole story Felt too horny yesterday and had 3 serious encounters 1.was playing fallout 4 and felt too horny so i stopped playing and closed the door hopped on the bed pulled my pants off convinced myself not to do it without touching my penis 2.was on my chair in my bedroom Felt too damn horny and took a look at my penis and started rubbing I stopped before orgasm Went to the bathroom and thought about it and i was ashamed 3.Went to the bathroom a few hours later and started rubbing my penis while singing a song from a music video i used to jerk off to I stopped before orgasm again I think i forgot why im doing No PMO and started going through my posts and everything because i was fighting it for 26 days and i decided to take step by step from now and my current goal is No PMO for 1 week without any intention of losing and i think i can atleast do 1 week P=27 M=1 O=27 Wish me luck Day 27
Hi Spent a good day Didnt touch my dick or anything like that Had urges when i woke up but got better during the day Played fortnite around an hour Played witcher 3 Read 30 pages of The judgment and i think i'll finish it in a few days and start reading A Song of Ice and Fire Bought A Game of Thrones few years back but i wasnt much of reader back then P=28 M=2 O=28 Wish me luck Day 28
Hi I screwed up real bad yesterday thats why I didnt post I was on my bed around 8A.M Wasnt doing anything just lying on bed then thoughts of porn overwhelmed me and I MOed. Again after 2 hours or so I went to bad and started thinking again and MOed for the second time Well I now know that even if im on day 290 and im lying on bed like a moron with no intention of doing anyting and no intention of sleep this will happen Now I gotta use every second I got doing sth not lying sth sitting sth thinking about masturbation and porn cause thats what beat me this time Atleast there was no porn so im glad But I dont want this to happen again so as I said im going to use every second ive got to actually do sth to lessen the thoughts this way P=30 M=1 O=1 Wish me luck Day 30
Hi Spent a good day My new rule helped me get over thoughts and i think it will help me the rest of life and i just need the courage to do it Started reading a book named "Make ur bed" last day Its really short so im gonna finish it today and start reading A Game of Thrones It really feels good to be on No PMO and i belive its the only way that I'll be truly happy so im not going to give up until im making my every second count P=31 M=2 O=2 Wish me luck Day 31
Hi Spent another good day Had a serious urge but stopped it Finished the book I was reading I mentioned yesterday Started reading A Game of Thrones I think i can do this"make every second count"rule that i made for myself and i think its going to be a huge help in my process Played Witcher 3 for around 2 hours or so Dont think there is anything else worth mentioning P=32 M=3 O=3 Wish me luck Day 32
Hi Didnt post anything these days because i fuc*ed up too much PMOed around 10 times these past three days And i just wanna quit this shit for God this time its my only reason Even with all the pain i dont think i would truly understand the damages of porn and masturbation and this damn cycle would continue for my whole damn life and i just dont want Even if porn and masturbation are the greatest things in life i dont want them no more I just dont want to sin anymore and be in this goddamn cycle so im going to fight harder this time and get rid of these sicknesses Wish me luck Day 1
Hi Spent a good day No porn No masturbation So thank god for this and everything else Wish me luck Day 2
Hi Spent another good day No porn No masturbation So thank god for this and everything else Wish me luck Day 3
Hi Spent another good day No porn No masturbation Wasnt home last day so i couldnt do much but overall it was good I thank god for this and everything else Day 4
Hi spent another good day No porn No masturbation Im currently at our village Havent got much things to do Im reading A Game of Thrones Saw a movie last night Nothing else i would like to mention I thank god for everything im given Day 5
Hi Spent another good day No porn No masturbation Saw a movie named 7.5(its an iranian movie) It was complete bullshit It was so bad that i laughed at most of the scenes that were supposed to be tragic Nothing else to mention I thank god for everything i have Day 6
Hi Spent another good day No porn No masturbation I thank god because i couldnt achieve this without his help Im back home so now i think i have more things to do Nothing else to mention Day 7