I am so deeply sorry. Relapse after such a long time.

The result of ejaculation after ~50 straight days of acetic drive and resistance? After telling myself that I had finally ameliorated myself after all that time? Deep penitence. I wish I could go back just a few minutes ago but I can't. I wish I could control the heavy dolor at this moment and act like a man who had only lost a battle and not suffered harsh casualties, but regret and shame are the most emotionally taxing to incur. Don't be like me - don't relapse if you're in the hopes of finding new light. What you were doesn't have to be who you are going to be, let the inordinate power of will and morality guide you through this intractable life, give each day your all, and never forget to stand for what you fight for. Stay strong, and I guess I will too. Peace.