Today I marked my 41st day of nofap. It's been a roller cister ride of pain, anxiety, loneliness and depression. I have been hooked on fapping since last 17 years and never felt healthy and confident like this for straight 3 days. Some days are good but most days are bad and full of sadness. Some days I am feeling highly motivated for my career and the next following day I am despondent. I wanted to be an engineer and I worked hard to be one but after when I got into engineering institution and was enjoying unaccountable freedom I developed the habit of edging for more than 3 or some times 6 hours. This thing made me so duffer that at one point I thought of dropping myself out of the institution. I literally believed that I couldn't even do simple graduation in arts or some diploma. But I somehow managed to complete it. Years passed and I started feeling dark sides of this evil. This March I felt extreme exhaustion, pain in sinus, tension headaches, weak eye sight, pain in jaws and gums, weak chest, loss of balance, weak legs and spasms, drowsiness after eating, pain in neck, shaky hands, pain in ears, throbjng pain around eyebrows, weak stomach, numbness in legs while sitting on floor, numbness in hands using smartphone while laying in bed, lack of motivation, erratic sleeping patterns and above all brain fog. I also slightly became hypochondriac. But after embarking on nofap journey I went through a hellstorm. Each day is worse than the next. The intensity of tension headaches, nausea, red veins in eyes, panic attacks, pain in gums, pain in lower back and back of legs, neck and cheeks increased and at some points was unbearable. Loneliness was the worst. During day you could care less but at night you feel pains - nights are the worst. I lost interest in watching anything like movies but one season kept me engaged and that is "The Wire". First 14 days were I didn't face any difficulty to manage these symptoms but after 14th day I started feeling the wrath of fap. Until 40 days I was thinking about suicide but I held myself tight. And today at my 41st I am feeling awesome and healthy. But it feels life is moving slowly and I have lost something. I know it's not what one could call full reboot but the intensity of pains have been reduced at least. I have been addicted to this evil for last 17 years and i believe it will take 3 years at least for reboot. But at this point what things I did to manage flatline are: Don't read any medical journals to see what your symptoms relate to what disease; trust me you are fine Sleep a lot Don't fret if you feel erectile dysfunction and penis has shrunked - it will heal after some time Don't spend time alone Don't lay in your bed other than sleep Walk a lot but don't do high intensity workout Don't be worried if you are having headaches - they are normal because your brain is detoxing dopamine of itself produced from PMO Don't fret if you experience something moving around your eyes or temples Don't be worried if you feel spams Don't be worried if you experience changes arpund your eyes or in your eyes - I experienced red veins in eyes and pain behind eyes for some time. This happens because testosterone helps eyes in their growth so far I heave read. Take sun bath for at least 15 minutes. Eat supplements Eat less red meat Take cold shower once a weak Spend a lot of time with friends and laugh a lot - this trick helped me a lot. Don't use social media - it's helps a lot The symptoms I mentioned above might be different for each individual but those are what I experienced. The solution to shrink flatline might be different for each individual but those are what that helped me a lot till this day. Kindly, fapstronauts share your thoughts and let me know how you guys manage your flatline and still managing it. Thanks
