Hello, I was addicted to masturbation for 12 years since I was 15 years old. The last year I joined nofap challenge (Hard mode) and today I completed 450 days. But sadly I am still suffering from time to another with bad symptoms especially brain fog, panic attacks, depression, anxiety and fatigue. These symptoms are not always there but they attack me from time to another (Maybe 3 or 4 days per month and especially after few days from ejaculation or relapse) but fatigue is always there. Moreover, my face is dark and horrible since I joined this nofap journey. I don't like myself anymore. Is this normal ? And when will I be fully recovered ?! Is there anyone suffering like me even after this long journey ?!!
What do you mean by hard fashion? Hardmode means no porn, no masturbating and no sex. You talk about relapse and ejaculation in the same sentence. That is why I ask.
During my journey I masturbated about 5 times separately .. maybe once in 2 months ... And I ejaculated about 10 times during massage by hot woman.
So not a continuous streak then. If you're a severe case then that's probably why you still don't feel good as you've been O'ing once a month in that time.
I agree with OhWhenThe. By relapsing you are reigniting the neuropathway. You need to stay in hardmode, no relapses. Another thing is, what are your habits like? I’d suggest picking up Meditation Journaling Exercise Gratitude A negative thought pattern needs to be worked on. Healthy diet Perhaps even working with a therapist to help you resolve what you’ve been hiding from with PMO. Also, if you quit and are just counting days without making slow incremental changes in what I mentioned above and other areas in your life than you will remain the same, if not worse, from the trauma of habit and withdrawal. I hope this was helpful to you Good luck, you can change!
Until when I will stay in hard mode ?!! ... 450 days is so much and my relapses during my journey are little. Also, I am planning to get married soon .. can I have real sex with my wife regularly at least 3 times a week while continuing in my journey of no porn and masturbation ? .. and will sex and orgasm help me to put my terrible symptoms to end ?!
You’re not 450 days in brother. You said it yourself, relapsing in between. This is why. You need to stop doing those happy ending massages too.
You are not doing hardmode, my friend. Even with little relapse you are keeping the neuropathway alive and not allowing your brain to rewire. As for Sex with your wife, look up Gabe Deem. He has a lot of advice with regards to rebooting with a partner. There has also been other posts on this forum from different guys who were married, look into that. Good luck
