So I accidentally did NoFap for the first 18 years of my life

Up until I was 18 years old I had never ejaculated even a single time (and no wet dreams either), and was in (I believe) a state of sexual homeostasis (even with a "high libido" at the time). The reason I didn't was just simply because I didn't know how and never thought to really try. What's interesting is that I would constantly get erections, but they were simply a PHYSICAL phenomenon that had no effect on my mental state whatsoever (whereas now, since I look at porn, if I just see a goodlooking girl in short shorts I'll be antsy and everything until I relieve myself). So during this period anytime I got an erection it was just a physical reaction and didn't affect my concentration or mental state in the slightest. It was at 18 that I started looking at fetish porn (mixed wrestling) for the first time and then masturbated (and ejaculated) for the first time ever (which seemed to "open the floodgates" because from that point on I had a desire to masturbate 1-3 times a day). Another interesting thing about me... women physically dominating me (wrestling, fighting, weightlifting, etc.) is the ONLY thing that arouses me. The genitals (and sex) do nothing for me, and it's been this way since I was a child (so my fetish isn't porn-induced). But that's for another post...

So I just thought I'd share this aspect (as it shows it's possible to be in a state of "sexual homeostasis" because I was in one)... is there anyone else here that waited this long to "do the deed"?

 

I think it was because the "porn" that arouses me (i.e. mixed wrestling) was very rare at the time (I was 18 in 2001), and even though I had seen some regular video and magazine porn from my friends... it didn't do anything for me. Since I have no desire to have intercourse it just never dawned on me on how I could masturbate... I'm thinking most guys (who normally just want sex) may realize that masturbation is just kindof simulating sex so they figure it out earlier. It was when I was 18 that I found mixed wrestling videos for the first time on the web and eventually figured out how to masturbate to it. And from this point on I just had the desire to do it every day...

 

I'm basically only aroused by (attractive) women physically dominating me (or showing that they can overpower me). So here is what I like:

• A woman in the gym that is able to outlift me (I'm 5'11" 135 lbs so this isn't TOO difficult). i.e. on instagram I search for women that can squat over 200 lbs (I can only do 185) and that is enough to get me off.
• A woman that dominates me in wrestling or fighting

Me dominating women (or being dominated by a man) does nothing for me. It seems this is rare, and I do wish I had an interest in sex like a normal guy... but from my research there's just no way to change a non-porn-induced fetish. There's also a scene for this fetish... session wrestling.