Yes you can. That’s your life. If you want it who can force you to do? I think you dont need to ask. You’ve got the answer.
I had the same experience. Every time with every fucking streak, after exactly 30 days, I had incredible urges like my brain is programmed to fire up with all porn images in my brain and urges to push me back to pmo. I lost nearly a half year every time but this time I was able to resist and what happened after I resisted was and is fucking incredible. I went from incredible peak of urges in day 30 to a hard flatline in day 31 and after day 32 I could feel how my brain began to healing. I could feel real incredible strong attraction to women again what was not hijacked and influenced by porn, I got daily random boners and morning woods again, my porn induced fetishes and fantasies decreased after this period within 2 days by 80%. I‘m on day 35 now, imagine where I will be after day 90. When you really have a problem with porn, resist. Don’t give up and fight this urge. After you resisted the main big urge, everything will improve and your brain will begin to heal. But when you do it just 4 fun, do what you want but at least masturbate just to your fantasy and not to porn.
I think I got it, I am not going to fap anymore, thanks for your advice , I am really interested in the benefits!
I had to pick myself up again after relapsing on day 55. A very daunting and upset feeling afterwards, but keep on focusing on the goal. I've been trying now already for almost 18 months to get rid of my addiction of approximately 6 years. Hang in there brother.
