Virgin until 31, 20 years of pmo, poor sexual performance. No porn, no masturbation but having sex

I made an earlier post but just described my long awaited ascension from virginity which I don't think is important to others

In this attempt I'm going to begin where hmthings are now.

I am single. All of my sexual encounters were a mix of one night stands and one casual fling that ended abruptly due to ED.

Performance wise I

• Struggle to get erect takes time
• My erections are rarely 100%
• I can't have penetrative sex while standing
• I feel almost nothing while penetrating a vagina and blowjobs are also unstimulating
• Delayed ejaculation
• Going flaccid during penetration or blowjobs

There is some performance anxiety especially with attractive women

Anyway I am currently around a month of no P. I MO'd twice in this month and had sex a total of 6 times with multiple orgasms for some of those occasions.

I plan to stop fapping completely now.

I've already seen some improvements, SLIGHT increase in eeection quality, time taken to get erect and sensitivity during penetration

Right now my balls kinda hurt but I have no desire for P which is a new experience for me. I've always watched P and watched some extreme stuff, beastiality, gay porn, Trans, hentai, fake rape. I want to O but I don't want to use porn to do it.

I'm not referring to my conscious mind and what that wants because that has always wanted sex with a woman, however, my body has always responded to porn and desires for porn.

The experience of having sexual desire not linked to porn is very new. A physical sexual desire.

My last O was with a girl around 3 days ago.

 

One of the main goals of this thread is to document my reboot while having and pursuing sex with women.

I personally don't want to go through months of hard mode and I believe that not Oing is what leads to the flatline.

There seems to be a consensus that you must flatline and that it is a healthy part of the reboot process. I am not entirely sure if I agree.

The main reason for my.doubt is the validity of the supporting science. It seems to just be an accepted theory kf the community rather than properly studied and documented fact.

I'm not saying that I don't think flatling is a natural part of the reboot process. I'm just saying that I have my doubts.

I want to see if a reboot can be completed and healthy swxual performance can be attained by someone who NEVER had any sexual interactions and instead used porn for all.of his developing life without flatlining for 2 years.

 

Update 22nd October 2021

I met the girl I had ED problems with and it turns out she really didn't care and was wonderering why I hadn't texted.

At this point I hadn't pmo'd for around 19 to 20 days which beat my previous record of 14.

In thr last 20 years that is the longest I've been without pmo.

Keep in mind I haven't watched porn since early September giving me anywhere between 40 to 60 days of being porn free

I met with a mentor and he spoke about how difficult it can be to have sex if its not missionary. He said that at least I learnt a lesson that you can't force it to work and if it isn't working for you then just stop and chill or leave like in my case where there was no option to chill.

Regardless sex was completely successful. I was more or less 100% hard and my sensitivity was significantly higher.

Whereas before I barely felt anything from penetration and blowjobs I was able to feel and enjoy penetration and ontop of that she made me cum from a blowjob which I used to think felt like nothing.

This time there was definitely some sensation and it felt good but obviously still not fully sensitized yet.

I didn't cum as quickly as I thought I would either which was a relief.

All in all very positive experience for me and im feeling much better about myself sexually