35 years old and did 144 days of hardmode

Hey, guys, I’m 35 and until 2 days ago completed a 144 day reboot in hardmode due to weak erections and not being sensitive enough during sex . Despite my girl being very sexy and wonderfully well endowed , I would not get hard at all just being naked with her or kissing , cuddling , etc . Just no activity down there . Every time before sex she’d have to start off by fondling me and giving me a BJ before I get it up hard enough to get going . I’d take an ED medicine to help . I’d get a decent erection and had lots of sex and would sometimes last a long time (lack of sensitivity ). But I realized it’s abnormal I don’t get hard by visual cues alone and wanted to get increased arousal . This was 6 months ago the last time I was with my girl . On July 8th 2021, I decided to start nofap hard mode . At age 35, I had been fapping many times a day since the age of 14. And porn I would watch until last year . 1 year ago I quit porn completely . And 140 something days ago, on July 8th, I cut out all forms of masturbation. No edging , erotic images , no touching my penis except to shower , etc . All of it done : I said I’d only have erections and orgasm with my girlfriend . Well, here I am, late November 2021 almost 5 months or hardmode and I’m disappointed. I finally see my girl after all these months (she’s abroad) and I still don’t get that arousal and erection just from seeing her naked . What the hell ? I still require manual touch and a BJ to get going . But the worst part is now I am extremely sensitive to the point that within 2 minutes of her grabbing my junk and going down before I even achieve a fuller erection, I ejaculate loads and go down right away . I’ve had oral from her 4 times in the 2 days I’ve been with her so far and that’s all I’ve been to able to do because I don’t last for shit due to ridiculous sensitivity and because before I even see if I get hard enough to penetrate I have already cum/orgasmed . Before I started nofap hardmode , I would require touch and a BJ to get going as I said but I had less sensitivity and she could go down in me a few minutes and I would continue getting harder enough to tell her to stop so I can go inside her - now I can’t even do that . Why am I also not getting that level of arousal where my dick just stands on command at the sight of a naked woman ? It’s been nearly 5 months of hardmode and I’m only 35. During the streak , I had 5 sexual dreams but no wet dream ever . I wake up with morning wood most of the time . Is this it for me ? I’m stuck with eréctile problems ? Or maybe 5 months is not enough time ? My testosterone has varied between 490-642 , I wake up with wood , and don’t have any health problems . Please help me guys . What’s the matter here ?

 

Cyberpunk: Yes, from what I see, it’s not enough 4 months 3 weeks and a few days of hard mode (just short of 5 months). I will continue along . Yesterday I did finally get to finish inside my girl without losing control of the ejaculation/orgasm after the BJ but still tough . The sensitivity is unreal even when I just shower and touch . Jesus . I am waiting for the moment just a sexual thought or sight makes me hard . In the mean time , I will use ED pills as needed . I know I won’t need them permanently because of my morning wood which is a good sign . Either way to Hell with porn and fapping like a pathetic loser .

 

I’m 35 years old . First time I looked at porn and started masturbating was at age 14. So potentially I’m looking at about 20 months (just over 1.5 years). Ok. It is what it is . I’ll do it . I’ve already done almost 5 months and it’s gone by fast . In the mean time, while I’m here with my girl, I’m going to enjoy her as much as possible because I won’t be seeing her for months after December .