HELP!!!! Struggling stopping for good

So i been struggling trying to stop PMO I’ve done 90 days a couple times but eventually I end up relapsing either right after accomplishment. Or a a week later even done so even when I accomplished 30 and 60 day I relapsed on both occasions so I feel there’s this pattern where when I post here I end up relapsing which is kinda weird. I’m striving to reach my last 90 day reboot and continue on with NoFap PMO till I feel like I have control then gradually bring in MO with no porn just self pleasure. Any tips or comments or advice would be greatly appreciated guys I would like for this to be my last post as rebooted and become recovers and help others do the same how you all try on this site. Also I never had porn anxiety when I had my PIED PROBLEMS!! And never took it to heart but it’s been a while since like almost a year and I been going through a lifeless penis kind of Im getting erections morning wood sometimes but penis has gotten shorter is this a temporary problem. It’s kinda given me performance anxiety before I get to the actual bright lights so I just been denying girls that want to have sex cause of this scarcity

 

Thank you from the insight man I really appreciate it makes sense and I feel like I’m finally getting there where I do t think about days pimp at all while have Random erections here and there how do I get over no being scared when it comes to a real girl I see myself holding back as in not even trying to go there with women when I’m my head I’d know I’d want to as I am attracted to her