Hello, I am a brand new member here and wanted to come and confess my personal sins and addictions to all of you out there. I'm 22 years old, ever since I was a kid I was always extremely fascinated by women's feet, I can recall to as early as 3rd grade where I would always want to know what girls in my class were wearing flip flops. This curiosity became a part of me very fast, and by age 14 I knew for a fact that I had a foot fetish. Starting from a few years ago, I began to grow tired of foot fetish porn, I had seen just about every video there is, and wanted more personal solutions to feed my cravings. So at age 18, fresh out of high school, I began anonymously buying feet pics from women/girls I knew. I would make fake Snapchats, Instagrams, Facebooks, and burner phone numbers in order to ask almost any girl even remotely associated with me if they would sell me feet pics. At first, it was only girls from my grade at my high school, then it became girls one year up and one year younger, then women from my university, women from work, then just about any girl that looked attractive to me, I had to see and possess their feet pictures. I would always only do one sale per fake account, I would change my cashapp username after every other purchase and make a new account every so often, to this day I have had 19 different snapchat accounts and 6 different Cashapps. I always keep my old usernames in a text document, just incase I want to reference back to them. I covered my tracks well. Obviously, only about 10% of girls I ask would say yes, I have about 15 or so different girls feet pics, and have easily asked 300+ women anonymously in some way. I always tried to not harass the women, some would just say no and that's that, some would get very angry/upset. If a girl that I really wanted to buy from would tell me no, I'd wait about 6 months or so and try again, posing as a completely different person asking. I got a girl to finally say yes after about 4 tries or so over two years once. The other day, I asked a girl who I hadn't asked in over half a year again, she got very emotional and very scared, demanding to know who I was, accusing me of stalking and harassing her. She posted a bunch of shit on her public story about it, it read like someone having a very serious mental health episode. It seemed as if she had dealt with a stalker before, and me coming to her triggered these emotions. Knowing that I had seriously hurt someone hit me in the heart and gut like a freight train. I went to bed and woke up the next morning feeling absolutely sickened with myself. I can't recall a time in my life where I ever felt as ashamed of myself as now. I've had feelings of being a loser for doing this, and have tried to "quit" several times before, but I always just easily brushed those feelings aside. But not this time, this time is different. I'm committed to stopping this behavior, I know that I personally hurt someone and have/are causing them lots of emotional stress. I hate hurting people, I've been a "gentle giant" my entire life. I just don't have it in me to hurt someone. I'm determined to never do this again, to quit being a porn addict and to stop jerking off multiple times a day, every day. I hope that my cringe addiction and behavior helped someone reading this. Thank you for listening to my confession.
Hi man, I was in a very similar situation. The difference being that I did not use a fake account, and I pretty much hit on every woman I followed on social and looked attractive to me. There's nothing wrong with having a fetish, but porn culture fucks with your head. You build tolerance and suddenly it's not enough. So you need something more personal, and you start asking people you know for pics. I was eventually called out and it was such an embarrassing experience, but I have only myself to blame. I'm still trying to move on, but I'm looking to get on therapy. Going back to your situation, I wish the best to you. I'm positive that it will get better for you. Once you get into better, healthier relationships, you will be able to indulge your fetish in a way that does not make you feel worse. All the best!
Welcome to the forums! I know what you mean, because I did something similar once. Thankfully, I stopped after only one or two unsucessful tries, so I never had to deal with what you are dealing. But you are doing the right thing by attacking your issues and deciding to never go back to your behaviors again. Keep it up. Best regards
One thing that bugs me is that I didn’t seriously consider how terrible this was until it hurt someone. I’m sure i’ve made tons of women feel uncomfortable before without knowing. It’s been eating at me. Thank you, I’m clean today and deleted all my accounts.
Most likely you have, yes. I know it feels terrible, but maybe it's good that you feel that way now. That will potentially make it easier to stop your behavior from now on. I wish you best of luck!
A woman can make easy money by giving you pics of feet that aren't her own. You jumped through many hoops of fire, only to be easily scammed. I've struggled with sexual addictions, but the worse ones are those that cost actual money. This is a continual issue with porn and sex addiction. Unlike other substance abuse issues like those of illegal drugs or alcohol, porn and sex addiction usually greatly depends on people. You usually can't have sex without a partner. Porn and sex addictions can drag you into social situations that you'd rather not be in. Out of all addictions, porn and sex addictions probably cause the most social damage.
This is a cross-section of your brain. Notice how the genitals and the feet are close together. Your brain is confusing the feet for the genitalia. This association was probably developed subconsciously. Porn is probably reinforcing this association. Once you quit porn, this association will also die. Trust me I've had this fetish too.
