What used to trigger you most?

A strange one but, a hangover and even worse drinking coffee with a hangover.

it’s a cast iron guarantee that I will pmo doing the above. I wake up incredibly horny and then literally anything sets me off

 

Most of those have triggered me. But there is probably something that has caused me to PMO more than any of the words you mentioned. Curiosity. A lot of the time I wasn't even horny, but felt a strong need to go on some cam sites, social media sites etc, because I was curious as to what I would see. I got some sort of enjoyment at the surprise, of what I was going to see on these cam sites and social media sites.

 

When I feel exhausted, sleepy, bored, anger, anxious and when I come across a triggering image/video clip in a movie or tele show. And I even trigger myself by fantasizing for the fun of of it. Pretty much any emotion I may feel I will turn to PMO for a "relief", knowing full well that the consequence will be worst.

 

For me anger and excitement...confused emotions, stress are all triggers.
It's how I dealt with life. Porn and masturbation were like drugs, like popping pills in order to calm down.
A big part of recovery for me has been learning how to breathe, how to focus on what is right in front of me, rather than be stressed about possible future events.
Anxiety, nervous tension and panic used to be triggers.
I had to learn to calm way the fuck down! Breathe/meditate/slow deliberate movements....relax

 

Ive never understood it but a book I read recently really hit home! It talked about how cortisol is released into the brain when drinking coffee, and that it is something your brain would expect when in a fear situation normally. It’s used to aid in fight or flight when in a dangerous situation.
On reading that, I felt a shudder down my spine (I don’t know how else to describe it but it sort of shook me up). The reason why is because when I was about 6 I was abused by a teenage boy. I was held down and in fear for my life over what was happening. My thought is that this was obviously a fight or flight situation and soon after this event my addiction started. subconsciously my brain has been triggered into porn by something that was set off when I was abused (cortisol would of been through the roof).
I know it seems odd, why would the brain want to do this. But don’t all addicts tend to have some sort of event that started their addictions, this was mine….
It’s as if at a subconscious level the release of cortisol sets off a pathway where I head towards pmo because of the abuse. I think if I am able to forgive this person it could alter this pathway and drinking coffee would not then have the effect it does. It’s almost as if it’s my brain telling me to do this through porn because I am still really angry about what happened.
Hangovers give me anxiety and create stress so I’m assuming yet more cortisol. By the way, if I’m really stressed (with work usually) it’s the same scenario. This has to point to that event….