Hi guys. I really need some help. I have been jerking off continuously to porn for some years now and I see the negative impact that it has on my life. There have been many occasion in which I tried to stop cold turkey but I always relapse. Instead, I decided to take it step by step. I successfully masturbated once a day for the past month (this is huge for me since I used to masturbate more than twice a day), but something happened yesterday... I had sex with a friend. We talked about doing it some months ago, but I was never up for it since I am not physically or sexually attracted to her in any way. However, I was really horny yesterday and made a move on her and ended having sex with her. The problem is what happened after I had an orgasm. I felt bad with myself. I felt deeply ashamed and as I remember the experience, I can't help but feel utter disgust with myself. I feel saddened and angry...it's a mixture of emotions that I can't seem to grasp on. It's like some sort of weird depression. I can't find the right word for it. This is weird since this isn't my first casual sex encounter, but this is the first time that I feel this way. Is it even normal to feel this way? The only thing I am grateful about yesterday is that now I know that I want to make a drastic change in my life right now (I assume everyone in this webpage feels the same way). I now know that whatever hole you might have in your life, sex can't fill it up -the same goes for porn and masturbation. I also learned that having an orgasm isn't a mood booster that will, eventually, make you feel better. That is why I want to end this dependency once and for all and quit cold turkey. I don't want to have an orgasm for the next 30 days, and I don't want to have sex until I heal myself and find someone that I truly care about. I'm so done with casual sex, too. I can't believe how hurtful it can be when there is no love involved -especially when you don't love yourself (this is just my personal opinion, but I respect everyone and their values and points of view). I was wondering if someone could give me some words of encouragement and maybe a couple of tips. I feel really lost and have no clue on how to start healing myself. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Sounds to me like sexual healing is inevitable for you in the near future. Your getting things about yourself figured out I cannot relate to your story very much as casual sex is not part of my life and never was. Keep going! I have a couple of tips but not sure how well they would apply to others. 1.TV and gaming sucks life out of you. Ditch em 2. Don't obsess over nofap. Doing so seems to have a 'dont press the red button effect'. So what do the most intense guys here do? They press the red fucking button xD
I can relate to your story. I went through the same... What you need is a hardmode. No more casual sex encounter at all. Sex ONLY if you're with a true lover. It will heal your mind!
Think of other stuff you are intersted in and devote all of your energy. I f not anything try body building to get at least good girls.
Hi guys! I know it's a little late but thank you all for your words and great advice. I just wanna let you guys know that today is Day 30 of my NoFap journey. No porn, no jerking off, no sex. I plan on sticking to this as part of a long-term goal that I've developed in these past 30 days. I'm pushing PMO and casual sex outta my life for good, and I feel really great about this. There are some days when I have to deal with my negative thoughts and emotions, but I think it's part of the process. Anyways, I couldn't have done it with you guys. Thank you, once again.
