I'm guilty of the you tube addiction, and looking up crap on Wiki. I look stuff up on wiki way too much. Today I was thinking of Huey Lewis. I wondered which of my favorite songs actually charted back in the day. I sort of knew. But some of them I couldn't think of the video. There I am, on wiki, looking up this trivial crap. It happened so involuntarily. That was the scary part. I was 15 minutes into this stupid research, when I realized how dumb this was. Like, who cares? What value does this bring to any human? Can I make money with this knowledge? It's so stupid. I need help!
almost slipped up, i caught myself though and got away from it quick. Wanted to come on here to solidify my refusal
How did you get a picture of my face on your avatar? I took that with my smart phone in the mirror! jk
congratulations yourself, The first 5 days are so hard, you can do it! Awesome! Thats what we like to hear. Just be wary when you come back from time where you have no urges sometimes you are very weakened. Oh man wiki too, i spent over an hour looking at things on wiki earlier in the week. Its not the worst thing but it is a huge waste of time. Great job, make saying no to those things a habit so that its the natural thing to do. Awesome Job man, great to see you pushing. Dont let those urges overcome you in these upcoming days.
I like the way you respond to people in your forum. Good interactions, lots of encouragement and positivity. How is your reboot going?
Thanks, responding to people reminds me of those things as well and having to interact points my mind in the right place every morning for each day. Also if i can help anybody then that would be the best thing for me. Honestly i think i need to refocus a bit. I haven't slipped at all, i have yet to look at anything even remotely sexual in these 33 days but there have been a few times in the last few days where i caught myself almost doing things that used to be the first step to relapsing again. Things like looking up female characters of media because i was interested in some power, ability back-story and the like. This often starts innocently enough as i do it with men all the time but with woman inevitably i see some sexualised picture and it is a huge trigger. Fortunately i haven't succumbed yet.
Yeah, I'm kind of like that too, in that I'll have a series of days, and I'm clean as a whistle. Then I get a hot minute and I'm researching females. But 33 days, that is really good! I don't know if this encourages you, but I personally think that the main thing is avoiding the O. It's not good to look at p-subs, and p even worse, of course. But the lion's share of the problem imho is the dopamine spike and the bad habits and behaviours for seeking it.
Yeah, unfourtunatly i had a problem with edging, so P without O is just as bad for recovery. Thing havent escalated yet though, and my re-focusing seems to be going well.
Today was close as well, but avoided masturbating after feeling a lot of temptation to. still wanting to make this 90 days
Back after my camping trip. 10 days completed. Hard to believe I made double digits. Headed for a vigorous workout and then catching up on all the work I missed. Idle hands are the devil’s workshop so I’m trying to stay busy busy.
Ok I have no suggestions other than just keep doing it. If you are able to cut down on edging/p-subs, try. Just as hard as it was to take the first step and start the abstinence, this is just another step that takes a bit of suffering, some self-control in order to sharpen the saw a little more.
Awesome job @tryingbest You can do today, whenever you feel the urges to open something, open this instead Wow, its so awesome to see you reach this milestone! Im glad the camping trip was good and its good you are keeping yourself busy as well. 10 days is the first digit, next up 100 days and onto 1000. Thank you, yesterday was tough. There were two times where i thought it would be so easy to watch P right now and then i remembered why i was doing this and i clicked on this website instead and got through the day without slipping. Well, I havent looked at anything of that ilk since my streak started so hopefuly instead of cut back it is remove altogether.
Day 0, I here declare that I join you for 90 days challenge! I've try quit pmo alone for too long! I‘’v lost count how many times I failed. I am now telling everyone here that I won't open any p link and glimpse any sexual pics. I should tell myself I'm on the mission to 90days every time a sexual thought comes across my mind! I also assure everyone here that I will report my process of the mission everyday!
Currently in the process of completing day 1, started this morning. Nothing to report so far, as expected. I will make a post in this thread everyday. My goal is a 90 day reboot.
Hope everyone is doing well on this fine Tuesday. Each time we resist we get stronger. I am anticipating that today will be a hard day so I planned ahead and promised things at work that will require my full attention to complete.
