Hi all, I'm new to this site, and at first was hesitant to join because I didn't know how many members know Christ. However after browsing a bit I've come across some great posts from people that are motivated to live a godly lifestyle. I've been struggling with masturbation for years. To be more specific I keep sucking my dick to indulge in the pleasure that comes from sex. Some of you might think that would be your dream, as you basically can have sex whenever you want; but if you think twice, think about how difficult it would be to avoid such a thing once you got attached to it! The memory of how great a reward will come from the act makes it extremely tempting. I am looking for help to stop this addiction as I am well aware of the physical and mental consequences it will have on me. I don't struggle with pornography which most people understand is bad, but many people believe that there is nothing wrong with masturbation, just by how common it is. However it is written that we are called not to indulge in the desires of the flesh, and sexual self gratification is definitely not what orgasm was created for. Not only does masturbation fall under sexual immorality, but any addiction, especially one you love so much when you feel the pleasure, is also considered idolatry.
I did end up slipping today even when I had the strong desire to make it through this year without ever performing autofelatio. After I slipped I felt very guilty and accepted the truth that I definitely need help. I don't struggle with pornography, but my body has become so attached to masturbation, or rather the physical pleasure that I experience when performing autofelatio, that I quite often think to myself that I love it more than anything else; and that, to me has become extremely disturbing mentally and spiritually. Now that this is the beginning of a new year, I have become determined to begin a journal, and record. my slips. Every addiction is built up on a habit which, gradually becomes more and more intense; so one of the best ways to overcome an addiction is to work it backwards by gradually reducing how often you Cary out the habit.
