After two-three weeks, I finally admit I have fully relapsed. This isn't just sneaking in a fap, I'm in that bad, depleted state again after repeated fapping on drugs and kink to enhance the stimulation. It's embarrassing. I feel that I enjoy watching women get humiliated because I feel humiliated. I've tried so hard in life and I feel like I've failed. This isn't how I want to continue living my life, wasting my creative energy. I can work on what is under my control... continue deleting porn on my hard drives, post a daily journal on these forums, abstain, reach out to others, and take care of myself. Resetting my counter now. I could use some encouragement.
You got this man! Don't let the embarrassment tear you down, relapse happens in all recoveries and no one's journey is linear. Cut yourself some slack, 2-3 weeks is a long time and shows you have the willpower to continue. Keep going, you can do whatever you put your mind to!
Thank you. That's what I needed to hear. Yeah, I started with my nofap goal at the beginning of the year and started posting here. I've succeeded in harm reduction for sure, just relapsed. I'm going through a divorce. Just saw my ex the other day and it affected me more than I thought it would. I know the divorce is the right decision, it's just hard missing having a partner to check in with daily and who cares about you. Just deleted my OnlyFans account. I'm cleaning up my room and I'm gonna take a walk soon.
The divorce has got to be tough, how long were you two together? Break-ups are so difficult no matter why they happen, I feel like only time and self-improvement makes it hurt less. Good job man, I hope the walk goes well! ☆
About six years, no kids. Separated a year and a half now. It’s for the best and fairly amicable. I’m finishing my first 24 hrs of NoFap at this point. I want to feel attractive so I can date again, but also NoFap for my own health.
Bro me too. Actually around 3am "tomorrow" it will be 24 hours. I relapsed several times nearly back to back, 3 in a day... I've even gone years of successfully abstaining. It's ridiculous how sick we all are. I know it seems like it may take awhile to feel good again but there's only one way... never PMO again.
Thank you for your message. I encourage you to keep trying. As you said, you have been able to abstain before. What changed recently? Soon I will be 48hrs of no PMO. I’m getting back in shape, a month ago I could barely walk a mile. I ran 2miles today! Went to work, had a non-alcoholic beer afterwards, did my homework. I am having urges to PMO. But just like I did with the alcohol, I don’t need to use porn (drug).
