I usually do 7 day streaks then relapse. This time I'm determined to make at least 100 days. On day 5 I always go through this weird reminiscent phase and get really emotional. Like it's a strong emotions inside of me. I don't know what it is I get all nostalgic. Any ideas?
It's odd how you can fly through some days when abstaining but some are a real struggle. I find the working week is easiest as I have a structured routine, but the weekends are difficult - lots of time to think and ponder (bad!). I'm not sure giving advice like "go and do something to take your mind off it" is that helpful (it doesn't really prompt me to shut my computer and get a cold shower) so I'd be more inclined to just try and accept your feelings and ride them out. Like now I'm feeling pretty low and lonely but hey I am aware of these feelings and so what. They are there. Let's see how I am later. I usually manage 5/6 days so 7 days would be a new personal best for me (since I started to consciously track how often I PMO). Like you the usual routine isn't good enough so I'm pushing myself to not only break a week but do the month - and see where that leaves me mentally. Good luck with your 100 days!
I get the same thing about a week or so into a streak. I get emotional watching movies, reading books etc. As if emotions were stronger than usual. I quite enjoy that, actually, it makes experiencing life a bit "sharper".
As your hormones and neurotransmitters readjust, your emotions can bounce over the place. Everybody is different. Hang in there and give them some time. They will even out before too long, and you'll start feeling the beginnings of the widely mentioned benefits.
Cool quote on your signature mv8652... with sentiments I certainly share: "I want even my memory of fapping to fade into the mists of the past".
