This month feels longer for some reason. I feel like I've been sober for a while but it isn't even two weeks yet
Time always feels like it slows down when you are doing what you ought to be doing, especially when what you ought to be doing is difficult. This is why a one hour gym session feels like two hours.
I lost this morning, and I have no one to blame but myself. My head has not been in the game the past few days. I was edging like crazy and it had me on-edge constantly. But I have no excuses. I did not want it enough deep down. So my NNN streak is over. Time to reset and start again.
Day 9. Last night urge was fairly strong. Noticed that my routine was to pmo at night before bed. Literally just said aloud "I don't do that anymore". Then just repeated that phrase until I fell asleep in my head. Woke up with "I don't do that anymore" on my mind. Day by day, just letting my body know that things are different and it's going to do what I want it to do, even if it's doing it kicking and screaming. haha
That's so strange. When I used to jerk off in the past, I wouldn't be doing it before bed because it would wake me up BIG TIME. Does anyone have an idea why this happens to me ? If I jerked off before bed I would have a terrible time falling asleep because it would stimulate me like crazy.
No Nut November: 9/30 It happens to me as well! Maybe it's how we react to big hits of dopamine. Years ago, it'd make me sleepy, but I've messed up my brain so much, it keeps me awake. If I eat a big dessert, or get excited after my football team wins, I'm wide awake, whereas before, I'd feel high, and then exhausted.
For me it was just a release and my body would feel mad relaxed. Since I've stopped, I've had more trouble falling asleep because my body is all "Hey, guess what time it is", and now I'm twisting and turning trying to go to bed.
I used to masturbate myself to sleep in the past too. Now without masturbations it's more difficult to fall asleep. Going to bed can still sometimes be triggering for me, because it's where I used to do the deed. Now I struggle less, because if I am tempted I just go to kitchen or for a walk. If I can't fall asleep, what's the point to be in bed?
9/30 days completed. Was a bit sloppy with social media in the evening. Otherwise a stable day, even though I felt kind of low energy throughout. Looking forward to reach double digits after tomorrow, it will be a good start on the weekend
Day 9, last day of one digit. A normal day, as yesterday. I postponed the workout for tomorrow, today I worked until nearly 7 pm. Good food, I cooked yesterday and I had enough food for today also. Happy to continue to progress each day. I can manage the stress better than I was in PMO. That sh** makes it worse. All the best for you!
Day 9. Getting close to two weeks overall. Things are getting really tricky now. I'm fighting so hard to not be super bored when the evening comes. Any other time of day, no urges, but everything I do feeds into how strong urges are at night. It's so annoying. I hate that this addiction essentially comes from within, from what should be natural sexual urges. It sucks. If I could go back in time to that first time I watched porn I'd throw my young self down a flight of stairs, teach the little asshole a lesson he'd never forget.
No Nut November day 9/30 Today I am pretty tired, so hoping I'll sleep well. I am just gonna laze about and listen to a podcast about prehistoric life.
