Still here and still fighting

Hello All,

I do apologise for not posting at all of late but as it has been the Christmas and New Year holidays my wife has been off work which has been great and has really helped me focus. However, as she has no idea about my porn addiction I haven't been able to post here.

It is now 18 days since I looked at any porn or edged in anyway. I think it is going okay, but it has been tough; I don't need to tell you all that. My main withdrawal symptoms have been brain fog in as much as I have found it difficult to concentrate on things, particularly reading, and I have become a little forgetful. However, I have seen some improvement over the last couple of days with this.

The other withdrawal symptoms I have is the feeling of having a head cold, perhaps linked to the brain fog, without the associated cold-like symptoms. I am also finding that I am feeling tired a lot even after a good night's sleep! The other thing I have is zero libido!

I just wanted to know if you all have experienced similar withdrawal symptoms and I suppose that is another symptom in itself, feeling anxious and feeling a need to reassure myself about everything.

I must admit that the temptation to look at porn has been strong and I have found myself saying to myself things like "just one little look won't harm you" or "I don't think I've got an addiction". Then I check myself and remind myself of how long I was using porn and some of my behaviour that I exhibited when using porn and that brings me back down to earth with a bump.

Anyway it feels good just to be able to say all this to you guys.

A happy and porn free new year to you all.

Cheers,

Tull

 

Thanks both Gaston and Yuri_sing. It's support from people like you that make the difference!

Cheers,

Tull

 

Thank you ICleansedMe they are indeed beautiful!