Day 104, still nothing...

Recovery from porn can take a very long time and each person is different. Yes there is the 90 day challenge would should bring most people many benefits. But it takes years to heal the brain from all the damage that PMO has caused.

It is not just learning not to beat the meat but how to deal with stressful situations in a new way. Learning to view women as more than objects. Learning to deal with the real issues as to why you use porn to "relieve your stress."

Even if you are not a Christian you should check out the book Pure Desire.

 

Was it 104 days hard mode? What were you trying to fight? ED? Or just P addiction? What was relapse PMO or just MO? I don't know about depersonalization, so can't help with that, but maybe with more details I might be of help.

 

Science is not the answer. This is a deep-seated problem, and you need deep-seated solutions. You need to change your very self, your emotional life, what you see as beautiful, what turns you on. It is not just about negation, not doing this or that, but about proactivity; develop yourself, educate yourself, inculcate a love of beauty in all beautiful things, read and listen to the best that has ever been thought and felt. Supercharge yourself, and then P will fall away like dust from your shoulders.

Go Hard!!!

 

There's your problem. Start educating your emotional life. Read about it, read aesthetics, philosophy, try some poetry, listen to beautiful music. Some of this might be hard going at first, but you will acquire a taste for it. You will develop, and then never look back.

 

I read about depersonalization so now I have an idea and if that's the case I don't think the nofap is the solution for you (not trying to discourage you in any way, just saying you might need different type of help). They say that there is specific curing method for that and its related to psychology and staff (no professional is such things sorry). What I was reading is the that many people suffer from this and there are clinics for it. One of the signs is what you are talking about, like lack of emotions, other were like being on autopilot (sort of) and living the life like inside your body but not really. I don't have that, but if what I am saying makes sense to you then you might really have that disorder, so you need to see a professional and maybe go to center. The article I was reading said that center was opened in London that treated 600 people with that. This might be far from you, but it shows there are many people with this, which means there might be other centers around you like that. If you think you might have that disorder you need to see a professional. In regards the streak, you did amazing I think, but I also think you might have different problem and although we all are here for you, we might not be qualified.

 

If you're only 18 yo, take it easy on yourself. It's a major achievement to reach that many days. You can keep going, just forget that you relapsed.