Hello to my fellow gymrats, jk this is to anybody. The question is does anyone feel stronger? This is not just a question of physicality but more mentally. I've only PMO'd once in almost eight months. As compared to everyday for the previous 12 years, and I haven't really noticed any "super powers" until thinking about it. Lately, I've been much more naturally assertive, it may because i'm lifting better (which may be apart of my reboot), i'm not sure. All I know is that whenever I beat an urge, I now feel like a shaolin monk who is mentally prepped for war. I want to hear your story, how is your reboot? What are your gainz (mental and physical) like? Superpowers?
I am on day 31 of hard-mode and yes I certainly feel like I have more energy and more drive. I am less depressed and have more get up and go.
I no longer have the knot in my stomach when I go to classes. The urge doesn't come with near the force it used to. It's there, on the flat days, but I can dismiss it. I'm socially more confident, and generally less anxious. Regret comes to mind for not doing this earlier. I meet regret for the past with gratefulness for the present. Super-powers? Some days yes [wandered around a bar the other night and got five phone numbers leading to three dates]. Other days, I feel flat. I'm looking forward to getting on a more even keel emotionally as I get through the 90 day challenge.
Yes I agree, after I go on a 2 week streak or longer I get so much energy and strength. I made it to 25 days then relapsed and somehow I have low energy and really tired right now lol. Back on day 1. When you relpase do you feel like crap(that one time you said during those 8 months)?
Oh yeah man I felt terrible! During and after, I felt like it was too late to stop and I went through with it. It felt like all the positive energy I was building up was getting demolished. I think you're spot on about the two week mark! Something about that time is when my energy and confidence go sky rocketing. Glad you're back on the gain train! Don't quit brother, keep us updated!
If you don't mind me asking, how long have you been actively pursuing a PMO free life? I'm like you now, its there for me too but I literally can switch the tracks in my mind; it ain't one way anymore. - I consider that a superpower compared to how I used to handle urges. I have some regrets too, but I wouldn't be the man I am today if it weren't for my past. That's a great quote you said, "meeting regret for the past with gratefulness for the present." Pretty much sums it the best kind of attitude. Keep up the good work brother!
I think the determined effort to change came a few years again when I could no longer endure the misery of my PMO life. Yet back then I thought the use of PMO was itself caused by my circumstances. So I quit my job, and returned to my native country. I took an extended sabbatical, and lived a life of recreation. And though during this time I developed other aspects of my life, I still would use P from time to time. After a few years, I felt a healing of sorts, and decided to return overseas to resume teaching. Yet once again, I found myself using from time to time. I wasn't overly concerned until one night I saw myself binging. this was a frightful wakeup experience where I saw myself sliding back towards the dark old days. That brought me to Nofap where I make that monumental decision to quit. Where previously I'd been gathering resources to quit, I now felt that I'd made that pivotal decision. Where before I saw a transition, now I see an active process of rebooting. I have lapsed twice in the past two months since that pivotal moment. But these lapses seem to be of another type; where previously I lapsed when my natural urge simply over-powered my rational desire, now my lapse is strangely just like a mental decision [the urge appears like a meek envoy not a conquering force], a curiosity, or a desire to experiment on myself or something... who knows exactly what goes through the recesses of one's own mind. Anyway, my point is that even though the quantity of my P-free days reverts to zero, the qualitative change, or progress in me, keep increasing. To explain; in the course of a streak, I attain to a clarity, to a sensitivity, or height of feeling, that I've not experienced before, the so-called 'super-powers' [but it seems unstable like peaks and troughs]. And then when the lapse comes, the discrepancy between the two states, the P-free state and the lapsed state is felt so sharply and miserably, that there is even more incentive than before to stay P-free. Simply put, it becomes a case of one daren't. Unto the Death You came fully armed, a fearsome foe, I stood my ground, swapped blow for blow. So you retreated to gather your force; I raised a fortress to stay the course. And now you send a meek envoy, But I'm a Greek at the gates of Troy, Or a Roman with Carthage at war; Unto the death 'til your name is no more!
Yes I feel better: Better sex life Less anxiety Can look my wife in the eye Nothing to hide Feel clean Sleep better Work better More energy Don't feel guilty or shameful Feel more confident Chattier Don't want to isolate Feel that progress is happening Less lethargic Jobs and tasks get done I laugh more I'm nicer to be around Life seems better I appreciate things more I notice the beauty in life You can't put a price on that
