Trying again a new beginning. My last relapse was horrible; I fell deeper. All the energy I've accumulated during the reboot process was used in a horrible way. I'm felling bad about it. But I will not quit the fight. I know myself better and I know better the benefits of being clean, of having less sexual thoughts in my brain and of being more sensitive than before. Here I am trying again. I'm sure I can do it better. I want to have the control of my body, of my emotions, of my desires. I want to be free from the desire of sexual feelings. I just want to feel again the beautiful power of a kiss, of just a simple kiss.
Yesterday I was a little drunk and home alone...and I did not relapse as always!!! that's a good progress. I hope I can stay strong.
Trying again. 35 days absolutely clean. Definitely this days has been easier than when the first try. I hope I can make more than 130 days ...maybe finally end the addiction? =)