Day 3 today. still getting a lot of urges. but determined to pull through! IF THERE'S A WILL THERE'S A WAY
when i'm home alone. Especially at night. because i used to PMO before going to sleep. I guess I thought it helped me fall asleep faster. Now before going to sleep I get urges!
Fight it no matter what it takes, you can do it I know you can. if you need extra help click the panic button.. it has actually help me a lot
Day 10: Hey, haven't been able to post for a while but, Wow the temptation is slowly building, today I was alone in my room messing with circuits and I got the sudden temptation or urges that to watch Porn, Thankfully I didn't, I got on here and click the panic button, prayed a bit, and probably going to log off after this and read the Bible. But I will say the social life Is getting better, I definitely feel more confident then I was before, and I have people approach me first and start chatting! it's awesome. In the class room I can defiantly focus better and retain information like its nothing. I had to do a project on some mathematician and had to present it with a speech on his background info, apparently I felt confident and was able to speak to my whole class room comfortably! this is truly God changing our lives, if you trust in him he will get you through this.
Remember, Stay distracted by healthy things, not content that'll lead to bad choices. Trust me you will regret it if you fall into satans trap. Praying for you all!
Day 15: It's definatly become more difficult to resist, I'm being tempted all around and something inside me is trying to make excuses to why it ok to, you know, have one little peak, or to masturbate one time just for the heck of it. I'm still clean thankfully but I know Satan is trying everything he can to bring me down. In school its getting harder not slip in a peak at the pretty girl across the room, and its even harder when shes wearing something that usually gets a man going wild. Everyday I'm being faced with new challenges and trying to stay clean is honestly starting to cause slight depression. I feel as if I'm trying to stay productive in something healthy, my mind will randomly think of old pornography images from the past, and I have to fight hard to try to think of something else or block it out. I still am praying everyday and reading the Bible, hoping with faith that God can get me through this. For some strange reason I'm starting to feel a bit anti-social in school, not all the time but just a little, I feel as if this might be some type of relapse from staying clean all these days. I can say though that I can focus a lot better in classes, reading books is getting easier and I can retain more info without forgetting it, theres a lot of positives that are going on right now especially spirtitually. I hope everyone is still staying strong in this challenge, and for those who gave in, God still loves you no matter what you do, nothing can separate you from him.
Hi mate, I've been reading through your post, just stay strong, especially in this period after reaching 2 week sober it becomes harder to abstain from temptations. Im on day 1 atm. I'm muslim and i do also pray to God/Allah to help me abstain from my addiction, my greatest challenge nowadays is to lower my gaze and not look at women. My heart gets filled with lusts and temptations when i look at pretty women, it is my biggest problem and the one that triggers me most!