hello I am handsome, with big dick, six pack and .... porn addiction

I never thought I finish here but here I am.

I am 26, living in UK. I look kinda like Daario Naharis (Game of Thrones), just shorter but little bit more handsome. Thanks God, otherwise I would be probably virgin till today.

Last few years and particularly latest months, it was still more & more porn and less & less real women, up to the point where I didnt have the energy or motivation to talk to the women at all or go out and socialize (porn option was much easier, cheaper and required less energy - or it looked that way).

3 weeks ago I accidentally got drunk, met some girls and had some good time out. I did not try at all to get laid or whatever therefore I was so surprised when one of the girls told me ''let's continue party at my room, I have there wine too''. It was hard to refuse so I ended up in her room. More drinking, singing, dancing then chilling, cuddling, kissing.

Spoiler: Triggers

After at least 1 hour foreplay when I first touched her vagina, she was already wet as a sponge... And I.... soft as fucking gummy bear. FUCK! I said I drank too much wine and actually I believed it myself. So I just fingered her and she was very happy with it.

In the morning we try again... same results ... ''fuck what is this fucking shit'' I was so shocked and scared, it never happened to me before. After breakfast, some comedy and cuddling we tried third time and I do not need to tell you the result. FUCKING EPIC FAIL. Moreover after this unpleasant experience I couldn't get hard for 4 whole days not even to the porn and it scared the hell out of me.

And now every time I have an urge to masturbate I just remember that helpless feeling when I was with that girl and it works like a charm every time. Plus NF Emergency makes a great job too. So today it is my 7th day without PMO, longest time in last 10 years. I feel so strong not to fap for another 83 days and this websites gives me even more motivation and hope that everything will be fine again. Thank you all very much for it!

 

I cant speak Italian, but in this age of Google Translator that is not barrier anymore. Grazie Francescoitalia!

 

@SnL maybe I should be little bit clearer, main message should be that how you look, how your dick look, or if you are fat or built have no affect on why you developed porn addiction. It may happen to everybody. It's just because of bad thinking in your head that actually you can change.

@christian0101 thank you for constructive feedback, that's the way how to eliminate my newbie mistakes here

 

Thanks @Jerry the Fapstronaut, that analogy with drug addict is brilliant, that's exactly how I feel. Actually I am so surprised how easy is not to fap (it is only 9 days but still). I expected it to be at least 3 times harder. More than urges to masturbate to porn I found myself experiencing urges to have sex with women (but maybe it's just hidden curiosity if I can do it and if ED is gone).
I fully agree also on other side effects and benefits, especially I want to beat procrastination, and I have a feeling that nofap is helping even there. Its 9 days only, I am still not 100% productive as I would like to be but my last 2 days were definitely the most productive in past couple months. Fingers crossed.

Thx @traveller22 for welcome. Yes, one thing I can agree on: truth always!

Hi @bohr, i was exactly thinking about same ''what if''. Scary as fuck. But I have very high hopes that this NoFap challenge will help us both! I can see progress even now: today I had boner just looking on girl in tight dress walking in front of me on street, no ultra graphic porn was needed, just natural beautiful women curves. That's basically never happened before as far as I can remember. I have just passed 10% of my challenge and I am already overwhelmed with it's effects. So let's keep it going! And good luck too!