Hello everyone! I started NoFap 27-28 days ago. I don't remember the exact date because it's my 7th or 8th try and when I am starting I said that "It starts from now and continues till the grave. So I don't want to count days. This habit is just finished, that's all." Everything was beautiful until two hours ago. Urges weren't coming. I was comfortable. But two hours ago, an incredible urge came. I wanted to resist but it managed to make me open a P. I didn't masturbate. I just watched... Millions of idea was on my brain. Some says "Let's to this! Everyone does. There is no problem with P!" And the other says "Do not do. You lived this situation once. It will only lead you to regret." First one won the battle at first... I was going to break. But... at the last moment, my last "logical" brain cells surprassed. And I IMMEDIATELY went to the shower. Without thinking... IMMEDIATELY. And I turned it to the coldest. I had a shower for 10-15 min. Now I am feeling great. I won my battle against the strongest urge I had ever seen. Before this challenge, I relapsed 7-8 times like this. But this time, I didn't let my enemy to defeat me. Now I have more experience. I know my foe better. Thanks for reading guys! PS: I have an answer/concern. Does this have a major effect on my rewiring process? I didn't edge or masturbate, just watched for 15-20 min. From now on, something like this will not happen, I promise guys. --sorry for my bad english.--
Hello Vernunft! Welcome back! Great that you're back and that you are honest about your approach and progress! Also, well done on a "almost-one-month-streak"! Valuable lessons I have learned just before becoming a fapstronaught was that we shouldn't let our guard down and we should approach PMO one second at a time. With this in mind I would like to recommend that you take advantage of the counters because it will help in trying to fight this addiction every second and remind you of how many seconds you have been victorious. Additionally, the counter gives the option of customizing what would result in you resetting. So every time a victory second is gained you can see what you have had victory over! I'm not sure whether you intended to give up both P and M? If P didn't lead to M and that was one of your goals then there is progress. However to completely "take the habits to the grave" we must specify what we would like to achieve and set the boundaries. The fact that you were questioning to do or not to do really appeals to me. When we give in to that which we want to resist- the pros and cons are always weighed up. We bargain. Or bodies and minds are in a routine of giving in and just doing whatever for a dose of dopamine and in a split second we act without really thinking. I try to deal with that by thinking deeply about my purpose for fighting PMO. What is your purpose for wanting to bury PMO? That cold shower is certainly progress! Its fantastic that you have not relapsed again. Very proud of you. Its also evidence that this beast can't be defeated all at once. We grow as we learn If you didn't edge or masturbate and that was your goal from the beginning you have made progress. Speaking under correction, I'ld say that the rewiring process has been interrupted. But you did make progress. And that's good. You should just keep working on it and not give up! Furthermore, you should evaluate yourself based on past streaks and habits to assess how far you've come and to determine the extent of the rewiring progress. It will help to read the Rebooting/Resetting/Relapse article on the Nofap homepage! And try not to be so hard on yourself but well done on what you have achieved! Your English is not bad at all and I hope I have helped or answered you even if its just a little bit!
Thank you brother! Since my childhood, everybody says that I am smart and gifted but I do not concentrate on my job enough and I give up when I have a difficulty. My biggest purpose is overcoming this: I want to restructure my character and change this understanding. Since the start of my rewiring process, I become a better student, a better athlete and a better person. I will not let my guard down again, I will protect my acceleration. Summer is starting and I am ready for the most beautiful times of my life. Sports and science should be my passion: not harmful urges or brutish instincts. Thanks to this forum and your great helps, I feel better now.
