Soo until probably half an year i never thought i was addicted to porn, but the reality was different.From the age of 12 i believe i watched my first porn and since then i have been masturbating, usually one per day if not every 2 days, meaning i have been consistent.I remember having sex for the first time with my ex gf back when i was 16 and she said "wow it's so big", of course it's a nice feeling but we broke up later.However, months before we broke up we stop having sex and i was desperate for it and when i finally convinced her (even though she totally didn't want it ) the moment i put it in her i came.It was the first time i felt embarrassed from premature ejaculation and i thought it was because i haven't had any sex in months, but now i understand it was from porn i was masturbating so hard. So more recently i had a friend with benefits that was after we broke up at least a year and half and when we started having sex it was like a minute until i came, of course coming up with the excuse i havent' had sex from almost 2 years.My dick actually wasn't so hard, i tried to get it hard and then start fucking her it was so embarrassing. Later i had a gf for 2 months, first time we had sex was actually not bad pretty romantic, HOWEVER i couldn't finish, my dick was soft and all i do was fucking, but with almost no pleasure .The second and the last time i was convincing her to have sex for about 30 minutes and she finally agreed and again i came less than minute.Can you imagine,begging for sex and cumming after 30 seconds or something.. Months passed i saw an article the benefits of not watching porn and i was amazed how much i was loosing.For the last 6 months i have been trying to quit, 2-3-4 days at best then again starting masturbating and it is pretty frustrating.Before a week i was researching about ways to quit porn and i saw that thing flatline and i was determined now to quit it.For fuck sake i am almost 20 years old and i don't remember my good old hard dick i want to fuck for a long time, having confidence and all the great things.In order to fight addiction you have first to confess to yourself you have one then, research everything why is that happening, what is causing it, different behaviours and everything related to it.The last few years, my soft dick didn't surprised me and even thought it was something i had to worry about, can you imagine, a young men thinking a soft dick is a pretty normal thing.Other thing i realised after reading a tons of information about how porn changes the thing you watch and treating women as an objects.When i started watching porn probably the first video i clicked was exciting for me and could do the job, later i started watching bondage, i thought it was nice, and later all the freaky things, because the usual stuff was no longer an excitement for me.Even now if i have sex i want to have rough sex, which is not really a bad thing, but if i did the things i saw on internet i wouldn't consider them shocking and that is bad.I see the woman i am fucking as an object that i have to fuck the living shit out of her that's really bad, this is why i am addicted to porn even though rarely i watch more than 2 times a days, 90% of the time is 1 per day.All of this has to stop.I started on 5th of june and i will continue until i wake everyday with a hard morning wood, because the last years i have been waking up with a soft morning wood or with no wood at all.I am currently experiencing flatline and now i understand it, because when i didn't i tried to stop watching porn i became worry and thinking is my dick dead?better fap one real fast.Now i understand the problem and i am dealing with it.It is hard, because probably from today i am starting thinking a lot for porn, but not watching or masturbating, it's the brain wanting that dopamine.I will be fine, for sure.During my day 3 and 4 i had a pain in my lower abdominal,which is a common thing as i read other people having it too, and had the feeling that my testicles, particularly my right would go up into my body which has happened twice and the feeling is awful i feel shocked and scared from that, even though after a little push can be fixed.It was very horrible for me, but it passed.Also, my testicles had shrink from all the porn, but now they are slowly regaining size, which is good and the morning wood is getting stronger and then again going flatline, a dead dick but is totally fine with me.SO it is a long damn thread, but i felt the need to share all of this, just so later i can tell you how better is not to watch porn and all the benefits i will get out from it.I am determined, i am strong, i will succeed.Today is 10th of june, day 6 right now.I will get my dick back !
Sorry I saw the wall of text and didnt read it. Im sure thats why no one has replyed yet either But hey I agree the flatline is a bummer but Its a necessary because in order to get to the light at the end of the tunnel. You must first enter then tunnel and well.. The tunnel is pitch black. So no worries ride through it and embrace everything as an experience and a learning lesson because the Journey is far more important to you then the destination. Because there is not guarantees in what you will get in the end anyways Good luck my friend
Stay strong! (and insert a new paragraph here or there). Flatline sucks, but is just another challenge for you to feel and overcome. Good luck
It's a damn long post, I read it all with total attention. Maybe I'm weird but I really like to read some words with "fuck" in it. Let's success and get our dicks fucking rock hard!!!! Restore the dignity!
Well i really don't think that i using fuck is bad, but whatever.Today in the morning i had a morning wood and god damn, my dick was big, really unusual, but after a while it went back to normal, but not like it was like a few days ago, still soft, but harder than before, so i think i can already see the light in the tunnel in terms of returning my previous good shape of my dick.However, i still need time to stop the urge to watch porn, i still have moments when i want to watch and feel how my brain wants it, but not this time.So far, so good. )
Nice one man, obviously you can see the physical benefits from not PMOing, but don't underestimate the psychological, engaging with your emotions and thoughts on P is also important, to understand where it comes from, why we feel a need for it, most use it to cover up deep rooted problems, its what a drug addiction does. Also to engage with the new emotions and thoughts that will eventually come your way that were closed off by P. ps a few paragraph breaks would be more readable for people, think you would get more responses that way because its not your content thats not interesting, don't build the great wall of china on here!
Yeah i might fix the paragraphs, wasn't really paying attention how it looked.I am really aware of the both psychological and physical effects and that's really important in order to succeed.Days passes and i think my brain is become less porn hungry, which is good, but there is still hunger.I am positive that i will succeed and a month without masturbating would be a record for me, i am super curious to see how hard and big my dick would be.
Is it bad that i am still thinking not about a porn, but about a girl that i am soon probably going to have sex?I feel the desire for sex, only that is in my head for a period of time and then disappears and then again.I believe that as long as i am not masturbating i am fine, but i am not sure if by thinking this way the brain will be able to recover itself?
I am like an animaaaal that wants to have sex with everything oh my gooood.My dick is getting harder and i had a HUGEEEEEEEE morning wood, nothing like i have ever seen, but from yesterday and now today i am like an animal i barely control myself.I thought that if i let myself watch a porn gifs, not masturbating that would be good, but it isn't it just made me even more hornier.Gotta stay strong!!!
It gets easier once your through the first weeks I heard, its like fighting an end boss at the beginning, if you allow yourself to watch porn you allow the end boss to take over your brain, and before you know it you have relapsed. Its tricky but you can make it!!
It is your own personal challenge, if it feels like cheating (it feels in my opinion) you shouldn't do it. If you think its not cheating since you don't O or watch P?. You should do a no P or O (Porn , Orgasm) challenge for yourself. But in my opinion just go for the no PMO, once you succeed it actually feels like you've accomplished something, I'm on my fourth day now. And I tell to you sir, it is possible but it is hard at the same time Like I said before
I am at day 10, and i did M only once, because i was feeling like a god damn animal.I don't know if it because i M, i feel calmer, but probably after a couple of days i will feel like an animal and i will have to control myself again.Good thing is now i don't feel the urge to watch P, which is nice and i do feel calm,but i will be happy with myself if after 4-5 days still feeling the same, because i think that little M i did must be the reason, if it's not, then good for me Update:So it turned out, M without ejaculating is even worse that just ejaculating. http://yourbrainonporn.com/what-if-i-use-porn-without-orgasm .Knowledge is power!
So i have failed my previous reboot, and recently started again.I guess now i am in real flatline, because during my last attempt i watched erotica, nude girls and porn gif, and that fed my brain with those images, which is no recovery at all.Now i don't view anything and my P is really dead, even have a lost in motivation to do anything(even i had an important exam coming i couldn't study no matter how try i tried) .I have no libido and i guess i just have to keep going and hope it will end fast.
Yesterday i met my ex and before we broke up i was a mess and having a real hard time in my life.Low self-esteem, low confidence, my behaviour was far from manly and of course i was still masturbating.When we talked, man i was calm, confident and i felt alpha.It is the testosterone coming back and after these kind of situations i am even more motivated to win.8 days without any porn/masturbating.
So the last days i am sooo happy and confident, because i start researching even deeper of the benefits of nofap.I started to notice changes in my body and overall behaviour and wanted to know why.Then i started researching like crazy and oh my god it's amazing how much benefits we got from nofap.I will list you what i am currently experiencing: -clear eyes,they are sparkling and also more expressed limbal ring(research it, women are getting attracted by that) -really getting that deeper voice and i have also experienced that after a workout(i workout a lot) but PMO kept from me from getting that permanent effect and now i sound much more manly and alpha -i have more energy in the morning -more concentrated i was so easily distracted, now i can finally continue with my studies -more calm when talking to people, not giving a fuck -no social anxiety and actually trying to get into conversations more often -i can easily stare people at people's eyes and especially women -looking every girl i see at their eyes, giving them cold blooded stare -actually saw a couple of girls checking me out, which has never happened before -even though i workout a lot, now i have even a better posture -better muscle gains There might be more, but these are the most important.I literally start researching about the benefits, when i have nothing to do and getting even more motivated and it's the best feeling when i am actually experiencing it.That's day 11 for me, still in flatline, but i am so happy.When i get out of flatline, parents hide your daughters, i am coming.
